Hi everyone!! It's Kiki....

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Registered: 04-06-2003
Hi everyone!! It's Kiki....
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Sun, 08-10-2003 - 12:37am
It's been a while since I have been asked to leave and I am not here to stay but to just apologize for my past behavior. When I started dating men that I met on-line I wanted more than anything to meet the man of my dreams. What I was doing instead was a smoke screen for what was truly going on and that was my health. I have spent the past many months trying to get healthy physically and make that my priority. I, unfortunately, have not succeeded in the healthy goal as I am coming off a 4 week bout with pneumonia. But!! I have stopped dragging poor unfortunately men into my life and expected to deal with me as I am now. Not right and wasn't right when I did it.

I have learned what is good for me. Having a relationship is important but only if it's healthy. I did meet someone in April 2002 on-line that lived in Washington State. We held back meeting for over a year and early in 2003 we came face to face. He was completely aware of my health issues. We got a long great. It what I was looking for. But in my heart and soul I knew this man wasn't going to work because of his divorce of less than 3 years and his 4 children. We talked a long time and for the first time in my life I made the right decision to let it go. As we all know letting go is hard but when it makes complete sense it works. We continue to occassionally talk but we just know it's fruitless and I really don't think keeping him as a friend would work. NO I did not fall in love with him.

I believe strongly in on-line dating and when the time is right I will jump back into it with hope and faith. My best friend Gary has recently hooked up with someone he met on-line and they are, as we speak, enjoying 2 weeks of romance and bliss from his good looking new friend from Australia. Teaching that person the joy of having many different peanut butter choices. I am thrilled for both of them.


So here comes the apology. I am sorry for not always using my best judgment when posting here in the past. When I felt that I had outgrown the board I should have moved on instead of lingering and expressing my frustrations.

Haven't figured everything out in my life by any means. But I'm on the right track. Changing priorities is vital right now.

Kiki

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Sun, 08-10-2003 - 12:37pm
Hi Kiki.. How are you? I am glad that you sound as if you are doing great.. I wish you the best. You sound as if you have grown and I am happy for you. When you weren't coming online to tell everyone how you were doing healthwise, I was wondering about you. And since all of the argueing was going on the board, I couldn't help but think of you again (sorry.. It's the truth. It made me think of before) I think that it is great that you aren't involved with all the online guys anymore.. It gives you more time to take care of whats important in your life. YOU!

I wish you the best in your life. Stop by and let us know how you are once in awhile, since you don't want to post.

Take care,

Love,

Nikki

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Sun, 08-10-2003 - 2:12pm
I am so glad to hear from you. I was so worried since I never got any emails and no response to those I had sent. It seems things have been going better for you as you have spent time thinking and evaluating your life. That is just absolutely great. I did always wonder how your health was doing please keep us up todate. Stick around and read how everyone has been doing here. So much has gone on. Again thanks for coming back and it is great of you to be appologizing to the board. You are really a great woman.

Marie ***Giving great big huge hug. I have really missed you.

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Sun, 08-10-2003 - 2:43pm
Hi Kiki! Glad to see u here...and happy that things are going well for you. Hope you stick around :)

Kelly

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 08-10-2003 - 11:11pm
All the best to you, Kiki.
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Mon, 08-11-2003 - 12:43am
Hey Kiki! Its so great to hear from you! I was wondering a few weeks back about you and everyone else who used to post here and what ever happened to everyone. I hope things work out for you...you've always had a good head on your shoulders...and I hope that you get yourself healthy soon! The place wasn't the same without ya girl and we missed you!

Lindsay


Edited 8/11/2003 12:46:28 AM ET by linds8300

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Registered: 04-16-2003
Mon, 08-11-2003 - 9:10am
Goodluck to you Kiki in all you do and hope you can pop in from time to time to offer more great advice or opinions. Thanks for posting!!!


Gail:)

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 08-18-2003 - 4:31pm
Hi Kiki,

It so great to hear how you are doing.I hope you feel better and keep in touch more often,Hugs,Crystal
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Thu, 08-21-2003 - 11:34pm
Hey Kiki,

Hope all things go great for you. Take good care of yourself girl. Hope to hear more from you.

Love,

Melly.