I can't help the way i feel - Help!
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| Wed, 01-25-2006 - 3:29pm |
I will try to keep this short, with as much detail as possible, I
really need help with my situation and hope to get some input.
In August I got in a car accident that left me out of work for about
4 months, and in those 4 months a lot of my "friends" ditched me
because I couldn't hang out with them like we used to. I'm still
young, 22 years old, attractive and have no problem attracting guys,
but it’s the type of guys I attract that is the problem, so after my last relationship (a serious one that lasted 5 years) failed, I set my standards higher, and promised myself that it may take time, sort or long, but someday someone special will come into my life.
On to the story.
While I was out of work, I started talking to someone online named
James, who unfortunately lives in Australia (I live in the US). In
these last few months we've become incredibly close, talking about
anything and everything and have become really great friends. I've
never clicked with anyone the way I click with him (online or
offline)... the kicker is he turns 18 in a couple months so he is
quite younger than me... Anyway, I can't help how I feel, everyday
it gets harder and harder because I feel like I'm falling in love
with him, and he's told me many times too that he wishes we didn't
live so far apart, and he wishes girls where he lives were like me,
and such like that. We're both on the same page, but I might be
the only one who feels like I'm "falling."
There are plenty of great men out there in the world, and yes I take
that into consideration, but I can't help but feel the way I feel
about James in particular... I, personally, would not be in a long distance
relationship... but I wish I could meet him or something. If he
lived in the US, I would not be here - I would visit him no problem!
But ahhhh... he lives so far away it complicates things more. And
he IS young, there is no denying that or shying away from the fact
that he is 17 years old. We talk on the phone a couple times a
week, as often as we can he loves talking to me and I love talking
to him... it’s actually quite inexpensive to call to him if I call
his landline, use an overseas phone card, and call after business
hours.
I'm unsure what my question is, but I hope to get some advice on
this whole situation. Is it worth my time to continue anything?
Should we meet? I have the means for it but I've also never left
the US before, and wouldn't want to go alone. Help :(

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