Im still alive

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Registered: 01-27-2005
Im still alive
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Thu, 05-19-2005 - 3:59pm

Hi guys,

I haven't posted in the board for a while because about a month and a half ago I quit dating in general. I actually was quite ok with it and took the time to find peace within myself. The time that I took gladly, without any feelings of resentment made me realize that I was avoiding something out of fear for a long time, something that could be exactly what ive been looking for. I have had a friend online for a year, we talk practically everyday, for the longest time I have been confiding in him about my dating experiences, my life, just about everything. Several times we have discussed meeting but I always shrugged it off because I realize how complicated it would be and to be really honest, its scared me to even consider it. I had convinced myself that we were nothing more then friends, and thats all it could ever be. I did have an interest in him but I thought it would never become anything, so I put him in the friendship cubbyhole. I know that LDRs are so hard to keep together, and I have read sooo many posts on this board that I know that everyone would say we are just pen pals. For the last few weeks we have gotten much closer, its like I got to the point where I just couldn't fight it anymore.
Yesterday I bought my plane ticket for us to meet after all this time. Even if it doesn't work out I know he will always be my friend. On paper hes everything I could ever want in a partner, but I know reality will put a different spin on things, hopefully a good one. We aren't meeting till july because of schedule conflicts, but my tickets are purchased, when I go to meet him I will meet a few more friends I have online since one of my friends online is his RL friend. So overall it should be a great trip.
Right now I am more excited then nervous, although I do have a few moment where I freak out, but I have good friends to calm me down. I guess im not really looking for any advice and this is more of an update. But if anyone has any id be happy to receive feedback. I will update after we meet so I can let you guys know what happened, good or bad lol.

GM

We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.
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Registered: 10-12-2003
Thu, 05-19-2005 - 7:06pm
Happy to see you back... Good luck and definitely keep us posted!!! :)

 

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Registered: 02-07-2005
Thu, 05-19-2005 - 9:09pm

Hi GM,

I'm glad that you took off the time that you needed from dating. It sounds like it was good for you to clarify some issues. Good luck with your meeting in July, it really isn't that far off... you never know what could happen then. Keep us posted and good luck.

Sunshine