I've lost my sense of humor....

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Registered: 05-31-2003
I've lost my sense of humor....
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Thu, 02-03-2005 - 6:15pm

and I need all of you to help me get it back. Maybe it's the time of year that's getting to me....and I get like this every year at this time. I have my birthday (which I HATE), crappy Valentine's Day (if I have to hear ONE more lovey-dovey commercial I think I'm gonna vomit) and the anniversary of my Dad's death all in the same week. And NOTHING on OLD going on.....not ONE prospect.

Jeezum, I am going to be Forty. Freakin'. Nine. next week. Am I going to have to do this for the rest of my life (what's left of it)? What was downright funny in my 20's and mildly amusing in my 30's isn't even VAGUELY amusing at 49. If someone told me twenty years ago that I'd be doing this crap (not just OLD, but dating in general) at my age, I would have told them they were crazy. I feel old, undesireable, washed-up, unwanted and pathetic. I'm tired of being treated like I'm 10 miles of bad road or something. If I could (which I can't), I'd repeat my 30's in a NY minute....those were the best years of my life. Sorry guys and gals, but that's how I feel and if I can't say it here, where can I say it? If it's this bad now, what's gonna happen when I turn 50?

I know some of you will probably say I should take a break. I agree. Unfortunately, it's kind of like passing a bad accident on the road.....you know you shouldn't look, you don't want to look, but somehow the pull of looking is too powerful and then you're sorry you did.

OK, sniffle, sniffle, pass the Vitamin P (Prozac) and the Kleenex and I'll be fine in a month or so.

ABM

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Registered: 05-31-2003
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 9:29am

Gee, LG, you really know how to make a person feel better, don't you? LOL! LOL! One of these days I swear I'm going to put her on a plane to California and when I'm sure she's in the air, I'm going to call my brother and say, "She's on her way. Pick her up at the airport at 3:00". :-) Unfortunately, they wouldn't even make it past the baggage claim....he'd send her right back.

Seriously, LG, you are right. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Most of the time I am pretty positive or I can fake it pretty well. This is just a funk right now and I'm sure it will pass.

Thanks....ABM

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Registered: 05-31-2003
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 9:33am

Sposa,

Thanks. I do yoga, but in the privacy of my living room. I don't do classes of any kind where there is a group of strangers. But that earring thing sounds pretty good! :)

ABM

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 10:44am

>>As far as the "I ROCK" dance, well, uh, if I did that, it would probably register on the Richter Scale, so I better not, unless I want the sheriffs at my house :)<<

And what if those sheriffs are cute? Or nekkid? Or just nice gentlemen who would love to take you out for a cup of coffee after issuing you a citation? Hmmmmmmmmm? Now, you stop putting my friend ABM down or I will have to kick your a$$. She is a wonderful lady!

I hear you on the crowds/groups thing. I used to have very similar probs. Whether in a crowded bar, gym class, or in large outdoor crowds. Panic attacks, anxiety. Ack. Bleck. I have been able to beat it, with a little extra help, so if you want to know more email me...I'd be glad to tell you what woked for me.

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Registered: 10-26-2004
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 10:52am

Hi AnnB,

Hey, you can Always count on me...it's not Easy living between these ears, but it IS fun! I often wonder What I would do without my galpals to share with!? That is why, when I hit my knees at night, my prayers for them come Right after those for my boys! Chick Rule, Men Drool! lol

No, I like Men, and I want a NEW one! (but the Real IS the real!)

I am going to be 49 in April and I would not go back for anything. When you think like that, think of what you might NOT have, if you Did go back? Hey, I would not give up my ability to Recognize all these red flags that I have developed (thanks mucho to those here for that brain wave-age! :)

The number one sees on a bathroom scale is NO indicator of a good person! Nor is a handsome facade, and I know Exactly where you can View a prime example of this in a small town near me; that 'Insurance Man Reincarnated from Heathcliff' mutt bu**! Yep.,really Gorgeous man, but he is a Cheeseburger short of a Happy Meal in the "heart and brains" department!

Roll on, little rock! Celebrate you, and add extra whipped cream to that, too!

YOU are true cool!

Truly,
Cupcake (ps--do u have Beagles? My dad raised them as hunters, and I love the little tri-colored guys!)

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Registered: 06-16-2003
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 11:20am
I know what you mean about the strangers. But the place I go is overrun with middle aged women just like me. In fact, the instructor's hips are just as lumpy as mine, and she wears stretch pants, so I don't feel self conscious!

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