Really confused and feeling stupid...
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| Mon, 08-15-2005 - 3:06pm |
Hi All,
I did say I was going to knock it off until I am officially separated...However,....
I have been communicating on some level/talking to this guy since the beginning. It started with him actually, because it was his picture that made me wink at him and put up a profile. So, although I chatted with a couple others that didn't work out- (as those of you that read my first topic read) it was *he* that I had the interest in from the start. We have talked several times on the phone because he does not like chatting or emailing online. I really like what I know of him and feel I could fall hard for him. I am not moving back to that area for several weeks yet....and can't meet him in person until then. Problem is, although we have good conversations,....he seems somehow distracted IMO. It's just a "gut feeling", but I think he is thinking of someone he either has recently met or someone from his recent past....or maybe someone he hasn't met yet. I feel like I am not "it" for him. Nothing he said tells me this...It is more his "actions", so to speak. i.e. The fact that he doesn't open my emails right away even though he is on "the site" and can see them. I am trying to go with my instincts and thinking seriously about not communicating anymore to save myself from a broken heart. So much is running through my mind. I don't need a broken heart after a separtion, even if the separation WAS MY idea. This online dating thing is really making me feel vulernable and sort of stupid.

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Thanks again, Sunshine, for your experienced take and insight on things. I don't doubt that I need some alone time and some emotional healing...Just for the sheer disappointment I have, if nothing else. I know we must all feel the loneliness at this time. We share the signs and symptoms of a broken relationship. I think I will heal pretty fast and hope to get on my feet fairly fast. Not overnight, I know. I am not going to be on OLD "lickidy split", as far as I can foresee...but I don't want to push this man too far away. I do like him, and he is asking nothing of me. :)
Thanks so much!
Sara
Hi Blacklabowner,
Thanks for your time and thoughts. Very kind of you.
About the man I am talking to...I trust this man to some extent. I may be over emotional...I *know* I am over emotional. That is so true. However, I can't say a full good bye either. Something tells me not to. If my gut is wrong, I will deal with that later. This man is asking nothing of me. I know there are things I am questioning...like his email philosophy. LOL. I may be making excuses for him, but I think it is a "man thing".
I am not going to OLD again anytime real soon. I know I have some sorting out of feelings to do yet. All that is really ahead of me. I do need to take some time. I will certainly try. Thanks again!
Sara
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