Well...a recap...and opinions wanted
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| Fri, 01-05-2007 - 9:44pm |
So....my LD/OL Romance came here to see me for 5 days....THe poor thing had to endure over 6 hours of travel once he landed at DIA...we were in the midst of Blizzard #2 and the main hwy's were closed!!! Ok....fast forward he finally gets here ...YAY! I think he is adorable - he is a big teddy bear...I had told him that I loved goatee's and he grew one for me = tres sexy! We gathered my stuff and left my house to go to his hotel. I know I know...caution caution...but I felt perfectly safe! We went out to a lovely dinner - I was so 'nervous' that I could barely eat! We went back to the hotel and had a very romatic evening... He indulged me in so many many gorgeous gifts - and all I really wanted was just him for the holiday's! THe next few days went by in a blur...we went snowmobiling up in the mountains - so gorgeous and a perfect day! and made plans to go to a great place on NY's eve that has a great band and atmosphere....We made the decision to take the shuttle there so that we did no have to worry about driving etc...SO we drove to the p/u point - got the shuttle and went to the club. We were there quite early so we were hanging out with the owners, the band etc... J had a few cocktails...I dont drink much so I had 1 or 2...we started chatting up a bunch of people, etc - you know perfectly harmless. He then proceeds to tell me that you would be 100% perfect if not for your weight????? Now I am not skinny and far from obese - I need to lose at least 25 lbs - I was 'gobsmacked' this coming from a guy who is 6ft and over 280!!!! Okay - so I let that go....
Then after a few cocktails we are talking to these 2 girls at the bar, one of them asks me if I want to join a 3sum...OMG!!!! You should have seen the look on my face - I could not even answer that one... Later on the other girl tells me that she really has the hots for J - you know the guy I am with!!! I know that she was completely trashed - so I didnt pay any attention to her at all. Okay...now fast forward to after midnight...time to leave so J and I get in the shuttle and Miss Thang (the one who declared that she had the hots for J)gets in as well...she is MORE than trashed now...John is pretty wasted as well but a bit more under control than Miss Thang...At one pt during the ride home she starts kissing him!!!! AND HE IS KISSING HER BACK!!!!! OHMYGAWD!!!! I said AHHHH EXCUSE ME - so they stopped!!!
Welll I was so PISSED...we got to the car - J would not give me the keys. SO we staeyed in the car... He passed out and I was FUMING!!!! OH MY GAWD!!!! How could I have let my self be so vulnerable..etc etc etc...We got back home and I told him that I was so hurt and my feelings were so hurt, that my heart is very very fragile and that I never wanted to feel so compromised again, he felt very bad...Apologized over and over....I said I know you are sorry....I never said that I forgave him or that it was ok...because I am still not sure about it all...I have NEVER had anything like that happen in my life!! This is almost surreal this is the man that sent me flowers, personalized M&M's, and handmade chocolates...He gave me a Tiffany diamond (paperweight) for Christmas!
I am SO CONFUSED....I am staying cool....He tells me he loves me... and does not call as much as he did before he came out - but I think that is to be expected (anticipation and all!)
HELP I need Perspective and Guidance!
Cheers
Sarah

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Hello maim,
It's really none of my business and I don't know how I even found myself reading this post. I wasn't even a member and had to become one to reply to your post. I clicked on some junk mail from ivillage in my yahoo mail and it took me to these stories and yours was like the first one I read.
I just wanted to say that is sounds like you have so much to bring to the table and although I haven't seen your picture, it sounds like your very attractive by what your date implied. Even hollywood stars gain a little weight for movies, a lot more than just 25 lbs, and then lose it. If he is that shallow as to focus on your weight that much, I say kick him to the curb and there are alot more men out there who will love and appreciate the real you and appreciate your inside beauty as well as your outside beauty. It also sounds like you could get anyone else that would be more sensitive to your feelings honey. I sure hope you wait on God for the right one and don't just get desperate and lonley and not understand all the options you really have. Remember anything good never comes fast or easy.
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