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The Big Move.
| Fri, 04-28-2006 - 8:48pm |
I know I haven't been posting a lot lately, mainly because I feel numb to all the posts and I feel if I don't have something positive to say then I shouldn't say anything at all. I have been very lost in my life. It's been a while since I've done something crazy and dangerous(not that my perception of dangerouse puts me in danger) But I need to make a change in my life. So I'm moving. 100 miles away. I'm quitting my good job as an accountant with a great investment banking firm and I am going back to school full time. I'm 25 now. No family that is close, no resposnibilities, no obligations. So I am moving to a mountain town to become a ski bum and go back to school. I am so scared. But its the first time in a long time that I have felt any emotion about anything. I've been living day to day and not getting any happier. I've actually been quite indifferent about everything, I just hope that I am making the right decision.
So, I will keep you all updated on the move, I'll let you all know about the saga that will become my life.
So, I will keep you all updated on the move, I'll let you all know about the saga that will become my life.


Wow...that's a big move.
Except I havent decided to do anything about it. My job is very challenging and many pple would love to do it and I m quite good at it (Project Manager in IT) but I m gradually losing interest and appreciation. I dont see my field as important in any way. I started to hate computers! I ve been working in this field for 10 yrs since I was 20! At 20 I acted and felt like 30! now I regret it. I went back to school 4 yrs ago and did an MBA but now I m thinking I should either go back to school or get my own business! my friend left for a 1 year trip around the world. My other friend got laid-off few days ago. Another is going back to school to study communication with a Latin American focus... I feel I m in the wrong field but dunno how to get out!
I feel numb and indifferent and no matter how big the challenge is, no matter how great the achievement me and my team do I never feel proud of it!
I just feel like I gave my life to my job and it gave me nothing in return!
I wish I was a rich heiress to something!
Chloe -- good for you. There's nothing like a great Colo. mountain town to rejuvinate the spirit. We all go through those times in life when we feel a little numb and lost. Just remember that it's temporary. It sounds like you are doing good things for yourself, and it will get better.
Good luck! :)
AJ, enjoying life with C.
juliara -- I dated a guy who does what you do. I think that field is very high pressure and there's a high burnout rate.
But, you can look at the last 10 years as an accomplishment -- look at how far you've come. If you need to make a change, that's all right. They say most of us in our generation will have several careers. So, if you're feeling called to do something else, there's no reason you can't. Just give yourself time to figure out what's calling you.
Good luck. :)
AJ, enjoying life with C.
thnx for your words of encouragement. I agree this profession is high-pressure. in one of our staff meetings one colleague broke down because she simply could not handle the stress level! I do need to take sometime off long breath and decide what I want to do next.
I have a strong committment to things so if I ever start with a plan I know I will stick around until it succeeds or fails miserably...
maybe my next step will be a competitor to iVillage :)