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| Thu, 06-22-2006 - 7:27pm |
I got home from the US late last night. I'm having a hard time getting some sleep - it's half past 2 a.m. in Finland - so I thought I might write something.
To put it short, I loved your country. I was suspicious at first, which probably is quite common among us Europeans these days, but everything I saw and everybody I met was great. I did all kinds of things, from water skiing to sightseeing to a walk in the woods, and I seriously fell in love with all of it. I always knew Americans are friendly and hospitable - the question is whether it is in the water or are you guys brought up that way? ;)
Anyway, the visit would have been perfect if I hadn't met a certain person. This guy represents everything I think a perfect guy should be: tall, athletic, a good kisser etc. I met him over a year ago, and he showed interest, but we didn't get to spend much time together before he had to go home (he's American). We didn't keep in touch, and I had sort of forgotten about him, until I saw him again, just a few days ago. It was like a slap in the face (or worse), I got weak in the knees and it took me a while to be able to walk again. A bit later, we said hello and chatted for a few minutes, until it was time for me to leave.
Since then, all I've been able to think about is him. It feels so wrong to catch a glimpse of him, as if someone would take a kid to a candy store and then tell him he can't have any of it. I'm so bitter! I had actually gotten used to the idea of never meeting him, and I'd figured if there's one person like that, there has to be more. Not that I have met any so far... I wish I believed in fate, so I could try to find a meaning in this, but right now it only feels like an unfortunate event that seems to have spoiled a perfectly good trip to a new country... *sigh*
I think I have to hop into my car and drive to the lake for a little run and a swim. It usually helps...
Thanks for reading.
Pipsa
| Thu, 06-22-2006 - 8:02pm |
| Thu, 06-22-2006 - 9:04pm |
