Bittersweet

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Registered: 01-07-2004
Bittersweet
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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 7:27pm

I got home from the US late last night. I'm having a hard time getting some sleep - it's half past 2 a.m. in Finland - so I thought I might write something.

To put it short, I loved your country. I was suspicious at first, which probably is quite common among us Europeans these days, but everything I saw and everybody I met was great. I did all kinds of things, from water skiing to sightseeing to a walk in the woods, and I seriously fell in love with all of it. I always knew Americans are friendly and hospitable - the question is whether it is in the water or are you guys brought up that way? ;)

Anyway, the visit would have been perfect if I hadn't met a certain person. This guy represents everything I think a perfect guy should be: tall, athletic, a good kisser etc. I met him over a year ago, and he showed interest, but we didn't get to spend much time together before he had to go home (he's American). We didn't keep in touch, and I had sort of forgotten about him, until I saw him again, just a few days ago. It was like a slap in the face (or worse), I got weak in the knees and it took me a while to be able to walk again. A bit later, we said hello and chatted for a few minutes, until it was time for me to leave.

Since then, all I've been able to think about is him. It feels so wrong to catch a glimpse of him, as if someone would take a kid to a candy store and then tell him he can't have any of it. I'm so bitter! I had actually gotten used to the idea of never meeting him, and I'd figured if there's one person like that, there has to be more. Not that I have met any so far... I wish I believed in fate, so I could try to find a meaning in this, but right now it only feels like an unfortunate event that seems to have spoiled a perfectly good trip to a new country... *sigh*

I think I have to hop into my car and drive to the lake for a little run and a swim. It usually helps...

Thanks for reading.
Pipsa

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Registered: 08-13-2004
In reply to: pipsa_s
Thu, 06-22-2006 - 8:02pm
I know what you mean by traveling. But in this case, it seems that you don't know the guy actually at all. Does he know about your feelings, what does he think? Maybe he has no clue that you like him. People have to be more open about these things, especially if they are from different places and cultures, and their time together is relatively short. On the other hand, I also think that it does not make much sense to think so much about a person whom you almost don't know--you don't know if he is the kind of guy you think he is.
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Registered: 04-13-2004
In reply to: pipsa_s
Thu, 06-22-2006 - 9:04pm
I would totally take seeing him by chance as a sign. Email him!!!