Career opens my eyes!
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|Wed, 06-25-2003 - 10:16am|
I was archiving old computer files came across an odd one...it turned out to be a draft of salaries. I was flabbergasted. Not only do I make less than everyone else - folks just post-university (no exp) - made CONSIDERABLY more than I did. Yes, they have univ degrees and I don't. I do have lots of education thats been useful here tho (economics, computers, etc). And I was reassured that exp. would count as much as education. I was operating a 24hr/day warehouse by myself when I was 19...so experience I have. In fact, I had 3 other jobs on the table when I accepted...all paying way more. I figured this was a great place to do something I believed in and that was enough for me. But finding this out really bothers me. 1) I got a raise in Jan but have not seen any of it b/c they want to try to give EVERYONE a raise to make it fair. 2) I train all the new ppl (who are making more $ than me) 3) The consulting work I do pays not only for our project team but parts of other ppl's - ppl who never have the time to help me. In fact, I put in a couple a weeks "volunteer" time and have the time to help them. Before, I did this b/c I BELIEVE in our charity...
I can't leave right now b/c I know they would be in trouble w/o me. The organization I do consulting work for is 40% of the whole company's revenue. It would jeopardize the contract. My manager and coworker are both leaving in a few weeks and they have asked repeatedly in meetings what my intentions are. B/c if I leave, they will probably open the contract up for bidding...no, I could not do it on my own :)
Thats ok tho - b/c I want to be strategic about where I go next time. I am not just blindly devoting my hard work to a "good cause." I want to actually make living at it as well! In todays market that'll take a little planning and preparation. But I still get job offers so I know I have the skills to be successful (thats been my strategy all along - get the skills not necessarily the education).
I see a larger issue...SELF WORTH. Obviously, I was not valuing myself, my efforts and my time accordingly. So I am not getting compensated accordingly. The same might be said for my love life - but I won't go there now. Gotta work on one thing at a time...LOL...and somehow I am optimistic about the future. Even excited. Happy. Maybe I was meant to find the file to set a spark under me :)