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| Fri, 08-03-2007 - 12:00am |
Hey..
So I don't really know where I should start. I'm 21 and crazy about a guy I met at work when I was 19. It's funny cause everyone warned me to stay away from him, and at first I was totally not interested in him. He is 30 (28 when we first met), bald, had slept with a gazillion women, into drugs and the whole club scene, and just not my type at all. However, he was always flirting with me and I began to look forward to seeing him at work on the weekends. I started liking him, but tried to fight it cause I knew he was bad news. He would call me and I'd make up an excuse not to hang out. I finally gave in a few weeks later and we hooked up one night after work on our ritual walk to my car. We continued to just hook up after work and stuff. Months later I wound up losing my virginity to him (although he still to this day has no idea i lost it to him). Ok so we continued dating..but it became more of a friends with benefits relationship. I talked to him about it and said he didn't want a relationship blah blah blah.. it's been almost two years and nothing has changed. I'm not obsessive with him and I think he has no idea that I like him this much. And i know what i have to do..cut him out of my life!!! But I can't..especially since I see I work with him on the weeekends. I don't know what to dooo!! Someone please help!! I'm leaving out a WHOLE lot..but thats sorta whats going on. I know he hoooks up with a lot of other girls.. and I try to do my own thing also. But i always have him in the back of my mind. I just want him out of my head!! UGHH I've tried just not talking to him but he always comes to me and I give in to temptation :/
i need some advice!

You are allowing him to treat you badly, which is showing him that you don't really respect yourself.