Day 7 and still counting
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| Mon, 11-14-2005 - 9:38am |
Day 7 of no contact. I thought it would get easier once I got to start counting the weeks instead of the days but so far, no. I was so much in love with the man he was in the beginning and I fantasize about renewing our relationship in such a way that I can keep it like it was in the beginning. I guess that means I've entered the 'bargaining' phase of the grieving process.
I have to make contact with him on Thursday to resolve some legal issues we still have between us. (Nothing serious, just exchanging property titles and things of that nature). I'm so excited about talking to him because I think it can be the first step towards becoming friends again and possibly lovers.
But I'm also scared because I don't know if we can ever become friends or lovers again and I'll just be making a fool of myself. I'm the one who is keeping the top 10 list of reasons why I wanted the break. The list is still valid, I don't feel that I exaggerated any of it. I just don't want it to be this way. (Maybe this is really the denial phase)

Try not to daydream about getting back together.