Don't You Love It When . . .
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|Sat, 09-22-2012 - 10:19pm|
. . . you are all set for a good sulk but then that always rational inner voice starts chattering inside of your head, telling you that you don't deserve to sit around feeling sorry for yourself? LOL.
We had a large family gathering tonight and met my brother's new GF for the first "official" time. She's perfect. No, seriously, there is nothing wrong with her. She's like a size 2, she's incredibly sweet, drives a BMW is a successful competitive ballroom dancer and business manager (she actually runs five businesses). Plus, she is helping raise her two nieces, one of whom, has a disability.
I'm not perfect, I have my flaws, trust me but why is it that my brother gets to have two daughters, a 20 year marriage, then turn around and have this fabulous new relationship, post divorce. I'm not jealous, don't get me wrong. I'm quite happy for him. I just can't believe that here, I've not had any of this, ever, and it seems to be coming around a second time for him. It's hard not to ask myself why.
Then that d*mn voice starts in on me. Well, you don't do this and you don't do that . . . you could be doing more of this and more of that . . . stop feeling sorry for yourself. The thing is, I know the voice is right but I still don't want to hear it. Nor do I want to ring up a friend and cry on their shoulders because I know they'd say the same things. "You could have X, Y and Z if you would just fill in the blanks, you know you could!"
Do you ever wallow or do you also have an irritating inner voice?