Fighting Holiday Blues
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|Mon, 11-25-2013 - 5:28pm|
Another year, another holiday spent without a significant other. And after my OLD rapist scare I don't foresee that changing anytime soon. And MB from work only makes matters worse. I know he cares about me but really it just makes me even sadder because if I'm going to be honest with myself I have to admit that I have fallen for him hard. And that is what has been driving me to find someone, so I can forget about him. It's very hard forgetting about someone that you have to see every day. It's even harder when he is the sweetest man I've ever known. I had to work Saturday and of course he was there as well. We didn't work together, he was in a totally different part of the building. I worked 1/2 a day and he a full day. So here is the text conversation we had that he initiated:
The 2nd hald of the day just dragged...must have been because the presence of your beauty was not here!
Me: You are such a character. You weren't even around when I was there
Yeah but the presence of your beauty permeates every nook and cranny of the facility in which you are.
Me: You are so full of sh** that your eyes are gonna turn brown
Maybe the reason you keep attracting scumbags is because you don't believe in your own beauty...Your beautiful!! Live with it!! Own it!!
So I know he is trying to make me feel better but it had the totally opposite effect on me. If he really feels that way about me than it's very sad because we could possibly make a great couple but he won't go there because of the age thing. If he doesn't really feel that way than it's pretty sad that I'm so pitiful he feels the need to say things like that to me. I have been looking for months for another job but I haven't had any luck unless I want to take a huge pay cut which I can't afford to do. But I did take a posters suggestion and have contacted the local hospital about possible volunteering on some weekends. Even if I don't find a man some single female friends would be nice too. Most of mine are married and don't go out much. The one single friend I do have is such a man hater that it's disturbing. I have had way worse luck with men than her but I still can't get myself to hate them, even if they are dirt bags, lol. Yep, November & December suck big time. I can't wait for the holdiays to end and they haven't quite started yet. Being depressed is depressing, lol again.