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holidays coming
| Sun, 11-05-2006 - 5:22pm |
It's getting to that time of year again that I'm starting to dread more and more year by year. The holidays. They're starting to feel like my annual visit to the gyno ;-)
Today I was talking to my mother about thanksgiving and she seemed more blah than usual about it. I think she's just bored with it because me and my sister aren't married with kids and unlike her friends whose kids are all married and having kids, she doesn't have much to look foward to, ie, seeing grandchildren, buying gifts for them, cooking for them. I sort of feel bad for her but it isn't like any of us asked for this life. What can I do. I'm sure she feels shafted and all. I wish it were different. In certain ways i'm more sad for her and my father than I am for myself. They're listening to everyone else talk about weddings and new babies and visiting grandkids and they're stuck with two grown daughters who aren't even in relationships. It sounds so pitiful it makes me want to spend thanksgiving in Greece and christmas in Iran or some other muslim country just so I don't have to think about the holidays.
Today I was talking to my mother about thanksgiving and she seemed more blah than usual about it. I think she's just bored with it because me and my sister aren't married with kids and unlike her friends whose kids are all married and having kids, she doesn't have much to look foward to, ie, seeing grandchildren, buying gifts for them, cooking for them. I sort of feel bad for her but it isn't like any of us asked for this life. What can I do. I'm sure she feels shafted and all. I wish it were different. In certain ways i'm more sad for her and my father than I am for myself. They're listening to everyone else talk about weddings and new babies and visiting grandkids and they're stuck with two grown daughters who aren't even in relationships. It sounds so pitiful it makes me want to spend thanksgiving in Greece and christmas in Iran or some other muslim country just so I don't have to think about the holidays.

I'm also dreading the holidays and can't wait for them to be over already.
I feel like what's the point; my family has dwindled down to merely 5 people who don't really want to spend anytime together. We'll have a quick mealm exchange gifts and I'll be back home, at 8pm them night, by myself and wishing I had more family, friends or someone I can spend the evening with.
The holidays are just one big fat reminder of how wack my family is and just how alone I really am.
Aw, you guys are making me feel sad!
I actually love the holidays, single or not.