Is it perverted that I'm only attracted to guys that are still in High School or look flawlessly youthful?
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|Fri, 11-30-2012 - 3:06am|
I'm 26 years old and when I hear women call their boyfriend their "man" I am dumbfounded that any women would find grown men attractive, I don't know why I am this way, I was never abused or anything but the idea of men just always grossed me out for as far back as my memory goes, but one way in which I feel blessed is that hardly anyone who first meets me believes I am my age, most people think I am between 15 and 17 and I am very attractive. I am bisexual and am not nearly as particular about women, all women attract me regardless age if they are beautiful, but when it comes to guys I sort of feel as if I am stuck in my youth in a way, the idea of the freshness and fragility in boys awes me so much that to even think about it could make me burst into tears. For example, I work as a hostess at Granite City and several nights ago a boy walked in who was probably about 17 and ordered to go and while he was waiting I casually asked him what brought him out tonight and he told me that they had just picked up his younger sister who is in elementary school from dance lessons and I had to go to the bathroom and lock the door because I was overcome with emotion and as soon as I got there my tears immediately turned to gasps and I was uncontrollably hyperventilating curled into a ball in the corner because the idea of having a boy like that still in school with a younger sister touched me so much and felt so beautiful that I couldn't stand the idea that it cannot be reality. Is this normal? Does anyone else feel this way?