It's like a bad sitcom now....

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Registered: 10-08-2003
It's like a bad sitcom now....
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Fri, 12-16-2005 - 12:02pm
I have just finally stepped out of my shoes and just started watching. It's funny really.
So you all know about my BF breaking up with me last week, then I figure I have to find a new place to live, then my lights go out on my car, then they start doing layoffs at work, and then my car got broken into again! Oh and I forgot to mention that my wallet was stolen like a month ago, so I don't have an ID right now. Then I go to put the security deposit down on my apartment and I get pulled over, and then my luck changed. The cop was about my age and female. I lost it and started crying, but I was laughing in between sobs. I tell her all of this. I'm breaking down completely but it so funny. She let me go, she said that I have had enough of a headache and that she didn't want to add to it.
And I went home and I was depressed all night. So I hand wrote a 10 page letter, I guess, to know one in particular. I got it all out. All my emotions, all my screaming, all my heartbreak, all of my frustrations.
And then I started listing all the good things I have. I started looking around all all the doors that are opening because a window is shutting. I stopped staring at that window wishing to stay open.
I have this amazing life that I am taking for granted by being upset. And I'm not going to do it anymore.
You know, I was feeling pity for myself this whole last week and I know that i will still be sad, but I can embrace that and move on.
Sorry I have been such a stick on the mud! I vow to be better!
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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 12-16-2005 - 12:17pm

I am so glad to hear that you are feeling better! Way to use those boot straps!

But we are all entitled to feel a little sorry for ourselves every now and again - just as long as it isn't all of the time.

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Registered: 09-01-2005
Fri, 12-16-2005 - 1:13pm
No apologies necessary... you've had a tough week and there's no reason you can't be down about it. It really makes you appreciate how you feel when you're coming out of it though, doesn't it? It's like you can finally catch your breath.
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Registered: 11-21-2005
Sat, 12-17-2005 - 10:58am
Sometimes ya just can't take it anymore, and you need to vent to "exorcise the demons."