It's official: I'm stressed

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It's official: I'm stressed
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Sat, 04-05-2003 - 9:48am
I had a doctor's appointment this morning. Last night and this morning, I was having some pains in my chest, but I thought that it was just heartburn (it might have been- I don't know). They were the same kind I was having right after my dad went into the hospital. She took my blood pressure and it was high (it's never been before, even when my dad was sick), so now I have to monitor it for the next month. How fun.

I really really need a break! Maybe I'll take a trip to Garden Ridge today (*The* Home Decor store..hehe) and find something cheap to play with.





Edited 4/5/2003 10:55:18 AM ET by cl-shywon

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Mon, 04-07-2003 - 11:07pm
I lift lots of heavy things, but that wasn't it!

Actually, a woman could have helped me at the store. I even could have done it myself, but the hardware guy probably would have run me off!

Hmm...another hint....Shhh..don't tell my landlord!

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Mon, 04-07-2003 - 10:49pm
lifted something heavy?

(it's one of the few things I ask men to do for me)

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Sun, 04-06-2003 - 11:34am
Nooo! Not that! Get your mind outta the gutter!

Try again. Here's another hint: I needed the assistance of a man at the store.

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Sun, 04-06-2003 - 10:47am
Hmmm...I bet you have a smile on your face too!!
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Sat, 04-05-2003 - 8:27pm
Guess what I did tonight.

Here's a hint: My back is sore, I'm all sweaty, and I'm probably gonna have to do it again tomorrow.

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Sat, 04-05-2003 - 1:40pm
I do have too many thoughts. I had a dream last night that I was at my dad's and he was still sick (he's had trouble with is blood pressure and heart rate) and we all had to wear chemical masks. In my dream, I had trouble breathing, but I'm not sure if it was for real or not. People with asthma sometimes will wake up with trouble, but I don't recall ever doing that.

Then there's the no raise at school thing. If I take enough classes this summer, I can still be bumped up for my college hours, but that's only $300 a year. It just about pays the taxes. I may see about $10 a month.

I'm also working on curriculum. I have a partner, and I really like her..but...she's, well, (I feel awful for saying this) not quite as bright as I am. It drives me nuts to have to walk an adult through things on the computer and answer "Did I do this right?" questions all the time. To keep from doing that, I've taken most of it on myself. It's faster than teaching her (although she's done some as well). We don't really have any direction from the admin either, so we could do it all and then be told it's all wrong. Asking the curriculum witch questions doesn't get straight answers either.

It also doesn't help that it's at the end of the school year. It seems like when we hit about April, the kids decide it's over and stop working. That's when the parents come out of hiding, wondering what can be done about Johnny's bad grades. Of course, I can't just say that he's being lazy (which is the truth). I have to come up with something to fix it. That can mean just concentrating on that child more, but right now I have five whose parents want me "on" them all the time to get stuff done. What happens to the other 18? It's just really frustrating when I'm trying to get them ready for tests, and they don't want to follow a simple direction like "Clear your desk." How are they gonna do on the state tests which determines our funding that's already been cut?

My best friend called me the other day wanting me to look up a phone number for her. Turns out, she's trying to get back in touch with her old alcoholic, abusive boyfriend. Her mom is even endorsing it. They wanna know what he's "up to" now. He's supposedly working downtown here now, and she wanted me to go to the store where he works and tell him to call her. YEAH RIGHT!!

To answer your question, there's no way I can afford a massage. Last year for Teacher Appreciation week, the PTO hired a woman to give us ten minute massages, and that was nice. Maybe they'll do that again this year. Money is just *really* tight right now. It always has been, I just think I'm feeling it more right now for some reason.

Anyway, that's my vent. Maybe getting it all out will help.

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Sat, 04-05-2003 - 10:31am
Shy, that is not good! You don't want to injure yourself with worry/anxiety! Did you take any of my advice ;-) Do you meditate? Do you ever think about your breathing (most of us breath way to shallow most of the time)? Can you afford to get a massage or reiki session? Gosh, I wish I lived closed as I'd give you one for free...

I really think you are struggling for balance here. Too many thoughts or worries...and not enough food for your spirit...

Hope you feel better with your new toy!

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