made the first move
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| Sun, 11-27-2005 - 8:09pm |
I just had to say that I am really proud of myself. I did something I was scared to do, but feel great about taking the risk.
I was out with friends last night and bumped into this guy I met a few weeks ago. We started talking and he was really hanging around me alot throughout the night. Oddly enough i had been thinking about him before i went out and secretly hoped he would also be going out (small town, one bar).
Well, i told a friend I thought he was cute. So later on she urges me to go talk to him again. We'd already been dancing together but he was off talking to some friends. So, me with my liquid courage, went off the dance floor, walked to the bar and got a drink, and then on the way back I made eye contact with him. I then touched his arm and leaned in to ask if he wanted to dance. He said yes and followed me to the dance floor.
So we get to the dance floor and are being silly and just dancing like goofballs. I lean in and ask him if he's involved with anyone. Unfortunately it wasn't the answer i hoped for... buttt, he said "yes, but i am so appreciative that you asked me that." and then he touched my waist and really stared at me, just very kind and sincerely flattered looking. So then he asked if i was seeing someone, which of course i said "nope, i'm single." And he asked if we could be friends and i said of course.
After that though he really was super attentive to me. He kept touching me a lot and staring at me. I was thinking he might be in a long distance relationship and feeling exactly what I felt when in that situation ("damnit, why can't i be single right now!").
Anyway, so though it didn't work out, I did make a new male friend and feel soooo good about myself. I'd been feeling kind of hopeless in the realm of meeting men, but now i see that with actions like the ones I made last night I can probably meet someone eventually and am not doomed to be alone. And I felt attractive too, feeling him staring at me and seeing that look of longing in his eyes. So yeah, not meaning to be patting my own back, but I feel really proud that i didn't let my fear of rejection stop me from taking a risk.

GOOD FOR YOU.
As a pretty shy person myself, I know how much courage that can take. You boosted your own confidence and his ego at the same time. :)
AJ, enjoying life with C.