New to board....need to vent I guess
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| Sun, 06-03-2007 - 10:10pm |
I am experiencing a lot of crap with guys lately. I've been single for quite some time now. I FINALLY COMPLETELY FOR GOOD broke it off with my ex in February after 4 straight years and one on-and-off year of being together. Found out the other day after not speaking to him since February that he has a girlfriend. That was mind-boggling, since I was always his girlfriend. He said he didn't like her and wanted out but couldn't do it and wanted her to break up with him first! What the hell is up with that? We ended up sleeping together which I would have felt bad about had he not been my long term ex. I still feel bad that I succumbed to his advances. Shows me what a sleazeball he has turned into. He's dating a girl he doesn't like to appease his friends, he cheats on her, and he's just a major sleazeball. Yet I still feel jealous that he has a girlfriend. Why can't I have found someone? Of course he hasn't found someone he likes. What a dumbass. So that is the first venting.
Second, I went out with a guy I met online. He's 22 and I'm almost 24. We hit it off online and actually decided to meet in person. I was pleasantly surprised that he was even better looking in person! He kept joking about how he was seeing an older woman. Things went well but I could tell he was kind of immature. Anyway, I drank a whole bottle of wine and he drank a lot of beer. We ended up going back to his apartment and skinny dipping and making out in the pool! Damn guess I was rebounding from hearing about my stupid ass ex. However, he told me to stay over and we wouldn't do anything and I agreed because I was too drunk to drive but he kept trying to make out with me the whole night even though I told him I was realy tired and drunk! Then in the morning he was bugging the hell outta me trying to kiss me and cuddle and all this stuff. His horniness and persistence the night before (and the fact that he said he was falling for me) was a major turn off. So I've been blowing him off nicely all week trying to decide how to let him down nicely. I talked to him online and he said he knew all along that he screwed up with me. He said he's used to shallow, physical relationships and didn't expect to like me so much. He said he felt really bad for not being able to control himself and trying to be all over me. I basically told him I wasn't changing my mind and he went on to explain himself further and put his heart on his sleeve. Then he said he was going to say bye before he started telling me off. That is my second vent. What the hell reason would he have to tell me off? I didn't do anything wrong! I was civil and polite the whole time, even when I was blowing him off...I gave him valid and honest reasons why I couldn't hang out and found valid reasons to not be able to talk to him too much and lead him on. He had NO reason to tell me off. What an immature jerk.
Hopefully things will go better with this guy I just met Sunday. I had been talking to him online as well and we totally hit it off. I met him at this natural pool we have in our city and we swam and talked for hours. He was so smart and cute! He's also kind of shy which was adorable. We plan to hang out later. So that is the only good thing about my crappy week. Feels good to vent.
