New crush..what to do?
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|Sun, 03-30-2014 - 4:08pm|
Hi everyone, it´s been a while. And it is definitely a long while since I had a crush (after that bass player neighbour fiasco about 1-2 years ago...), until now. This year I actually got myself a discounted season card for the icehockey team in my city, their games are held two minutes walk from my apartment. I have loved this team since I was 10 years old and saw especially many games when I was in my teens, but the last few years I have not even seen their games. Very enthusiastic about it all now though, it is great and I am thoroughly enjoying it! Not knowing anyone there and sitting all by myself, I had hoped being seated next to nice people I could start talking to at least, but noone (and there are mostly guys in this section) has bothered even saying hi. And, unfortunately I am seated close to guys who do absolutely not strike me as remotely attractive in any way (quite the opposite, actually), my usual luck. A bunch of guys who have known each other for years of season card membership... Next season I will most likely drop the season card and move around in the seat sections, maybe I am luckier then? Although 6th row is nice!
But, to the point. Ever since the start of the season and following the team on FB (they are now in the national semi-finals and doing really well at the moment - game again tomorrow), my eyes have been drawn to their newest player, he is in fact American and four years younger than me. And, according to an interview last fall, single. He was then, anyway (but things change, and alas, so often to my disadvantage)... He is tall and strong, has gorgeous blue eyes, is very good-looking in my opinion and, best of all, seems like a sympathetic person in the interviews. And I am now thinking, how on earth could I "accidentally" meet this guy? Our city is rather small. We have a mutual friend on FB (even more fan of the team than me), but one does not normally friend people on FB whom one has not even met in person, right? It would seem utterly weird! Not to mention the most unlikely thing for me to do, asking him out via FB when we have not met and he has no idea who I am. Would not want to seem like a desperate nutcase either! I do not know this mutual friend well, or , we have not talked since we were 12 or so....
So the next thing would be to find out where the team (meaning: he) goes outside the hockey. I have started to go to the grocery store next door to the hockey arena, just in case. The season is very soon over here, and perhaps he will not even be contracted for another season.... But I find myself dreaming and day-dreaming about him, pathetic, I know... Having always been single and in just a few days turning 37, hating OLD (it gives me the creeps just signing into those two sites I am a member of, one I am slightly paying for) and never having been a man magnet, the silly daydreaming is my survivor teqnique in a way. As always the true romantic, albeit in vain. But it does not help, of course! Any thoughts? I know it may sound stupid, but this is as close a crush as I have been for ages (= years).