(newbie) Wanted: One Night Stands - ok?
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|Sun, 04-27-2003 - 4:37am|
So, I've looked all over this website for something I can identify with, and I can't. My problem is, for the most part, to be blunt, all I want is to get laid (which, if I had more time to go out, wouldn't be a problem). I'm two months out of a year-and-a-half relationship, and even though I had been convinced I wanted to spend my life with that guy, I'm mostly over that relationship now. I'm not even bitter (that's new for me). But it's been seven months since I've had sex, and I'm getting awfully lonely for it. Another complication is that I have a conscience issue with the fact that I have two virtually harmless STDs (which are imperfectly, of course, non-transmittable w/condom).
Why can't I get what I want? I'm a student, finishing up a semester, and don't have much free time lately (but often dedicate what's available to the cause!), so I don't get out a lot. And, I want to be an upstanding person, but I can't always decide how much of a conscience I should have about the whole STD thing.
Why do I only want sex? Well, I'm mostly over that relationship, but my heart's not ready to try to love anyone yet, and probably wont be for a while. I don't care to let anyone else into my emotions these days. (And that would be what makes dating more than just sex, agree?) Also, after being in such a commited relationship for so long, I have a hard time setting standards for myself, as far as men go. I'm sure that there's a possibility that I'm craving sexual attention to validate myself as a woman, knowing that I am not completely healthy. But I can't see a problem with that; it sucks, but I don't see why I should rail against that.
Most of the advice I can find online relates commitment-phobics, broken hearts, or couples (none of which are me). So, I guess my questions are, does anyone have advice on how I should feel about the conscience/std issue? how about advice on the ultra-casual end of being single? Mostly, I'm just looking for someone to identify with on my situation!
Thanks so much for reading, and any reply!!