Single, again...UPDATE
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| Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:53pm |
woohoo!!! its been one month and 11 days since i left my X-bf. last monday was a trip.
I was coming home and just turning the corner to go towards my house and at that corner goin the other direction(TG) was my X bf and his dd. i only caught a glance after i heard a beep and the truck stopped(it was nighttime already and you know how hard it is to recognize vehicle occupants). I receognized the truck and my instant thought was to keep on driving away and that is what i did. I parked the car and went in the house not even wanting to look to see if he was turning around to come after me. Sure i had left something behind and gee, it would be nice to have it since i got those items for my kids(state quarter books with coins i have been getting when they are released). BUT, there is a catch ...they are replaceable. I can still buy the books and collect the coins. That is what i plan to do. i have no desire to go back to him, nor to speak to him or his dd or anyone from his family.
My mom and i are getting along ok. work is goin well. My life is going as well as it can.
I have no desire to date and will keep it that way for some time. Sex is of no concern to me. I am taking time to get to re-know me. I've surprised myself a few times already.
I am looking into an added career choice that could lead to a change of career if i pursue it that way. i am looking into selling candles for a company called Bittersweet Candles. They are fresh in the independant sales rep world.
I spend time at the library emailing my kids when i dont have them...they live with there dad since they did not get along with my bf dd when i moved in with him. when i look back there is that shoulda syndrome happening with that part of my life...if i had left him then i would not have lost 2 and half years with my kids. However, since i chose that road and recently chose this one i am enjoying lots of time with my kids. we are having a blast and their dad has been nothing but kind and considerate to me.
life is great. my girlfriend who is on housearrest for selling and doing coke is in rehab and she now has her dd with her, she recently told her bf to hit the road and she just recently found her own apartment HUD assistance apllicable since she is on HUD. she has also rediscovered herself and her dd. They are growing in a wonderful relationship now...one that i can see is better than it was when my gf was on drugs. She attends her court ordered meetings and volunteerly goes to more AA meetings than she has to. She is making new healthy friendships as well. She even told me that she envied me when she had her problem but now she is grateful god let me stay in her life because she was able to see what she was missing thru me and now she is learning to Be as i am(not mirroring u know but she is creating her own soberness).
God bless us all.
