single girl holiday blues
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| Mon, 12-12-2005 - 10:17pm |
Wow, I realize I've been really depressed for the past few weeks. I was fighting it, but damnit i'm just so sick of feeling sad. And I know exactly why- because this is my first holiday season where i've been single, in the past 4 years.
I seriously want to curl up and cry tonight and I can't get myself out of this rut. It's especially hard for me because normally i love christmas! I love christmas movies, lights, baking, skating, walking in the snow, buying presents- but nope, this year I just don't feel any of it.
It's especially hard to see the happy couples. Wow, I didn't realize I'd be one of these sad single girls. I'm sure I'll snap out of it soon and find something to boost my spirits. I just wouldn't mind cheering up sometime before christmas hits so that i can finish my christmas shopping with a smile.

Just let yourself be sad for a bit, then brush yourself off and fake it if you have to.
It's perfectly natural to feel this way sometimes - as long as it does not become the norm. When I feel like I want to curl up and cry, I let myself do it and invariably feel better for it. Then I am good to myself in little ways like getting a manicure/pedicure and spending a day on the sofa eating popcorn and watching movies I would be to embarassed too watch with someone else.
I too love Christmas but it still stresses me out a little. I love spending time with my family but then I look around and see that I am the only adult left single and I have a moment of self-pity. Then I look at all of the amazing people in my family who love me unconditionally and suddenly it doesn't seem so bad. I try to count my blessings at this time so that I don't let my single status ruin the holidays for me.
I really hope that you feel better and can get into the holiday spirit.
Jules