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| Sun, 10-15-2006 - 12:43pm |
On Wednesday, I started feeling some pretty intense back/neck pain.
| Sun, 10-15-2006 - 12:43pm |
On Wednesday, I started feeling some pretty intense back/neck pain.
I'd probably start with the regular doctor and go from there.
I am trying really hard to get some work done before I go home this weekend to see my grandfather. Of course I get pissed of realizing why I'm doing everything early and then I just mope around. So I havent gotten much done, but I didnt really think I would anyway.
I'm also a bit depressed because I was hoping R would surprise me this weekend and come down to see me. We had talked about him coming down and then it sort of dropped, so I wasnt sure if he was still planning on it or not. Well I got my hopes up and he didnt come down of course. My own fault entirely. But then yesterday it was like I was trying to pick a fight with him. I actually had to step away from my computer so I would calm down. Its nothing he's done, its just everything else I'm dealing with right now. He's being very good to me and patient right now. The other issue I have is that we dont really have a countdown....we're saying Christmas but nothing has been set (ie-plane tickets bought) and this is the first time in 2 years we dont have a countdown. Its not much I know, but it is frustrating not to have that little number tick down everyday. I'm also mad at myself because tickets to his hometown over Thanksgiving were super cheap in early September and have now doubled. Shoulda booked them when I had the chance...grrr
Internship is great, school is so-so. I'm just trying to keep my head above water and try not to fail. I'm very very scared of failing my courses with everything thats going on at home. If I fail one class, I could be held here in Chicago longer which would really really piss me off and screw up my plans to move in with R next summer. More money, more time in a place I dont really like, more time I'm unemployed....
I feel like I'm living in squalor (sp?) right now too because I havent cleaned in a few weeks. Its not disgusting, but it is getting necessary and its another thing I dont have time for or the energy
And I'm really not looking forward to going home this weekend to see my grandfather. I know how its going to be...me crying my eyes out the entire time and feeling bad about it. Great...
Ruby
Edited 10/15/2006 1:55 pm ET by rubyshoes03