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|Wed, 11-20-2013 - 8:21pm|
I'll have to admit that I haven't "been with a man"--well not even kissing in years--I know that's pathetic. I've had offers to go home with strange men from bars who I wouldn't give the time of day to, but I'm still not that desperate--yet! So Sat. night I went to a salsa dance--a couple of my friends were supposed to come, but for various reasons, they all backed out. I figured my choices were either to stay home alone (kids were going out) or to go by myself & see what would happen, so I went alone. I knew that there would be people there that I knew, plus it was free, so there wasn't much risk. There was a lesson first so worst case scenario, I'd get a free lesson, then if it was boring, I could still go home.
So my friend G was there--I met him over the summer, talked about him before--he's also a lawyer. I am sure he's not interested in me since he was telling me about other women he's interested in. HIs big dilemma was that he liked one woman, but she smokes & he hates smoke so wondered if he could stand to be with her. I did notice that a lot of times if he didn't feel like dancing he'd come over to chat with me, so one time, he just starts talking about sex and whether I had a partner! Very unexpected there--I wondered what he was getting at until he started talking about the other woman. That kind of annoyed me, so I said "well, do you know which man here I would be interested in?" and pointed him out. He had mentioned that he hadn't eaten and the event got over at 10:00 so I asked him if he wanted to get something to eat and he said yes. We drove (separately) to his neighborhood and then there we got some pizza--the place was the kind where you order at the counter--no atmosphere. Again he started in with the sex talk, but that's not all we talked about--dating, religion, work, etc. I did really think it was strange and wondered why he even brought up the topic if he was not trying to get with me. We stayed and talked about 1 1/2 hrs, then he walked me to my car, gave me a hug & that was that.
The 2nd guy is a guy I have known for years and dance with regularly. He's married but has a very odd marriage--I don't know what's going on there. I know that he goes out dancing w/o his wife every weekend night. A lot of times I'll see him on Friday at a ballroom place, which isn't really the type of place where you would pick someone up, but he'll also go to a disco that is a pickup place. Plus he's a travel agent and he goes on vacations alone all the time. So every time we're in class we make all these flirty comments to each other and joke around--I don't take it seriously or think anything is going to happen. I just do it for fun. But it's just like all this sexual tension is happening and it's driving me crazy since I have no opportunity to do anything!