Terrible couple weeks...defeated
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|Tue, 02-25-2014 - 7:40pm|
It is so hard being a single woman owning a home. Or at least my home. My ex built a 1000 sf addition onto our home. When he left I bought him out and kept the house for many reasons that made perfect sense at the time. The addition was basically just the shell. I have been trying for 5 years to get it finished, a little bit here and there and it is almost done. But other problems keep interfering with the progress. The garage keeps flooding so first I had to spend money on getting drainage put in.....still floods. Then the driveway was a mess so I needed that done. Then a shut off valve blew in the main bathroom and did a lot of damage. Then there was the roof. The heating & air aren't big enough for the addition so it's cold in the winter & hot in the summer....more money needed that I don't have. And now a bursted water line from the cold weather. That happened the 13th of this month....my valentines gift, lol. Then I go to work on VDay morning & MB gave me some chocolates and a card, which actually upset me because there he went again being overly nice in a very abnormal "friend" way. At least I felt it was. I sure as heck don't buy my girlfriends Valentines presents and I almost felt it was a pity gift because I don't have a boyfriend. Needless to say I haven't been in the greatest of moods which had MB sort of ticked off at me because I wouldn't tell him what was wrong. I told him that I had GIRLFRIENDS to cry and vent to and he shouldn't worry about it..... ticked him off even more but I don't care, he's over it now anyway. Then there is the stupid OLD crap that I keep putting myself through. Some days I just don't know how much more I can take. So now I can't wash clothes or even dry them because the contractors have taken over the dryers 220 line for their stuff. I had to use a half day vacation for the demoltion/water crew this morning and probably will have to tomorrow again to meet with the plumber. Just what I want to do....waste my vacation on crap like this! But we don't have personal or sick days so I don't have a choice. And then there is my 18 year old son but that is a whole other story! I really do just feel defeated at life in general. Times like this is when I realize how nice it was when I had a man that I could share not only the joys with but the burdens too. Ughhh, wish I knew what I wanted to do when I grow up, lol. But really? Why does everything in life have to be so darn hard?