What a difference a year makes!
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| Mon, 02-05-2007 - 9:19pm |
Hi all! I'm just taking an extended study break right now, LOL!
Today I was reflecting on how so many things have changed for me in the past year. I always knew that I'd be a full time student at this point, but I never would have guessed what would come along with it!
I think what I'm having the hardest time dealing with is attending classes on campus, but not living a traditional student life and not living a non-traditional student life. For example, I remember when I was back in college, and considered the traditional student (right out of high school, living away from home, doing the "college" thing) I had classmates who were the age I am now, and they had lives outside of school, such as relationships, families, etc. Now, I am a non-traditional student, and I feel so empty!
I don't want to sound like I'm being a whiner, but the transition is a lot harder than I thought it would be! After all, I was used to my previous life, work from 8 till 5, come home, go to the bf's place, attend things on the weekend, etc. Now, I'm in school, am constantly doing homework, and I have no real life outside of it.
I am not looking to date anyone right now. I just don't have time. However, even if I was actively looking, I couldn't think of anywhere I'd meet him. Furthermore, I can't imagine just "meeting" someone and having it go from there. I don't know, just the thought of dating turns me off! That sounds terrible, but while I'd love to have a good friend, I'm not sure I would be ready to take it into relationship status. I suppose everything happens in time, and when it's meant to happen, it will happen!
I guess I'm just frustrated because I don't particularly enjoy attending classes. I love learning the material, I enjoy doing the work, I just don't like the company in my classes. I don't mean to sound rude, but there's the huge age difference that makes it tough. Luckily for me, I do belong to a gym, and I do get out, so I'm not a total recluse. Also, I've found some quieter places on campus if I need to go study that are away from the busy, congested main campus. Oddly enough, one of these places I discovered today is a library to a faculty on campus that tends to have a lot of older students!
So yeah, adjustment sometimes isn't fun, but I'm sure it will be worth it :)

I know exactly how you feel. I am gearing to become a part time student this fall myself. I also have avoided dating for almost one and half year while establishing my career and still avoiding it with the impending part time student thing.
It is weird I just don't have the energy to devote for something else rather than career or studies. Well it is one of the phase. Enjoy it for each phase has its own excitement and challenges.
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