Wish I could take back time
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Wish I could take back time
| Fri, 01-13-2006 - 9:44pm |
Well I met a guy online 4 months ago and from the first day we chatted I knew he was a special guy. We have chatted most of the time except for one month where I started seeing this other guy (which I have posted about). So On December 28th I said goodbye o the guy I was seeing and told the new guy Chris that I wanted to be with him and he felt the same way. So we finnaly met on Wendsday. Ok keep in mind that this guy has not had sex in over a year and he has told me that he was gonna go out and find a whoreto sleep with because it has been so long. So we were just making out and I was sooo happy then things moved on and we were in bed then we had sex. He sent me a message saying we shoudl not have done that but that after talking about it he felt we had to. He told me that he is not normally like that and that he is unconftable with what we have done. I know it was a big mistake but when we were in bed together he said " I have saved it for u" refering to him not jacking off for 5 days for me. Don't you think that sounds like he wanted it? So we have not chatted since that has happened. Is there anything I can do to save this relathionship or shoudl I say friendship? He means so very much to me I have never trusted someone as much as I have trusted him. If there really is nothing I can do how can I get past all these feeling that I have for him. I just don't know what to do I am so scared that I have lost him. I have been having panic attacts so bad that I almost passed out in the store today. And my doctor will not give me any more panic attack meds if anyone has an suggestions I woudl really like them thank u Kaylee

From my understanding, it doesn't sound as though you should be thinking you have anything to not save, It doesn't sound to me that he has said he no longer wanted to be friends with you. Just becuase you slept with eachother, doesn't mean that your friendship is over. But, it does mean that your friendship has moved to a different level. You and he both should decide if you would like to continue seeing one another as friend, sleeping together, ect.
From my experiecne, don't expect you friendship to move forward, you have slept with him, given him what he wanted in the long term, and if you are able to remain simply friends with him, then go for it.
Best of luck.
Let me be sure I have the facts straight.