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| Fri, 08-24-2007 - 10:05am |
I have good news and not so good news to report....
The good news is that Sean called me last night at a reasonable hour (6:30 pm) before he started drinking. He invited me to join him for drinks and dinner, etc. And he was the first of my men to ring my new ringtone "it's raining men"....lol. I was in a GOOD mood...
The snag was that his roommate just got back from iraq, too. And sean asked me if i could bring a friend. I called Summer.... She said she'd think about it and to call her later, after checking out his roommate first.
I met them at a small bar/restaurant. They were playing pool. They both bought me drinks all night and dinner.... And then my heart strings were playing when they started talking Iraq stories. An older military guy started talking stuff like "when you put on that uniform, be ready for battle...." And sean and his roommate seth have seen fighting already. I felt proud of them and honored to meet our heros... I almost felt like it was my civic duty to be fun company for these guys...
Okay, back to the snag... Summer didn't want to meet us where we were at and I really wanted her to meet Seth, so I stupidly suggested...let's go to the karaoke bar.. Okay, who has already picked up on why that was a bad idea. Yes, because of Cook working there.... But I was somehow thinking, i could get away with Cook not noticing that i showed up with two guys. D'uh....
All in all, I had a fantastic time last night.... But I felt bad after realizing that when I showed up, Cook thought i went to see him... and maybe i should've. maybe i should've stayed at the other bar.... I wanted to leave but Sean and Seth wanted to stay and sing. So I had to make a decision, i guess... I chose Sean, obviously. My theory last night was 1)Cook will never forgive me. 2) But I'm not even dating Cook (i've never even kissed him), so why did it bother me. 3) Cook barely shows any interest but Sean does.
But I'm NOT officially Sean's girlfriend... by any means. It's Raining Men.... is it really my fault. Am I terrible? Help girls. I need honest advice .... I had friends at the bar say Sean is a jerk and that i should've picked Cook. He's shy but he's a nice guy. Last night I made a decision in the moment... (making wild love, as Sean put it). Would you have done the same thing??
If I didn't choose to go to the karaoke bar and just hung out with Sean, I would have had a much better story to tell this morning..... Should I stop beating myself up or what?
Loonybunny

Yes, stop beating yourself up about it.
Thanks, I did almost feel like i was out with two guys. And when they started talking about the iraq stories... i mean really... i almost cried. Sounds like they do secret missions... i don't know what they've seen or what it was like in iraq for 5 months...
that's why i gave them grace for being loud or a little wild. He wasn't treating me like a jerk.. He called me early like I asked him to... and he bought me dinner..like i asked him to...
As for Cook, Summer texted me around 1 am saying Cook was looking for me after i left... i didn't say bye to him. I feel like I want to keep Cook around so that when this FWB situation comes to an end... Cook will still be there... But i know, that neither one of these guys is long term And there are still other men on my radar...
I guess it felt like all these men were catching up to me and i was having a hard time juggling them all.... i guess, i shouldn't complain about that... and I'm not.
Don't settle for a fallback guy either.
I haven't read any of the other responses yet, but here is my 2 cents worth. I'm glad you went out and had fun. If Cook is truly interested in you, he should make that known. It may not be such a bad thing that he sees some competition. Men like a challenge.
You are right you aren't even dating Cook. Don't worry about hurting his feelings. It does sound like you really like him but he needs to get on the ball. You are single and not dating anyone. You went someplace that you enjoy. There is certainly no shame in that. I do think that if you aren't meeting anyone there (other than the help) you may want to branch out a little.
Priscilla
The good news is that Sean called me last night... before he started drinking.
What?