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| Wed, 08-25-2004 - 7:25am |
So he was joking last night because he isnt' sure what his Dad will say/ask but he said laughing "At the very least I threw him a bone!" hehehe
I am trying not to stress about it. When he is sure he will be and I decided long ago that when Alyse turned 3 (in a couple weeks) that I wouldn't start any new relationships until she was 5. So no serious dating. I just felt that between the ages of 3 and 5 they see so much and are so impressionable yet don't understand the logic of things and to explain "dating" to her would be too tough. Granted children at all ages can form attachments to men you date if they involved or even around BUT I felt she would not understand the non-perminency during those ages.
So, I guess what I am saying is time will tell. Right now he isn't going anywhere and even said that specifically. In fact he said that no matter what he would always be there for me and I know that is true. I have more serious relationships that I have remained friends with than not.
I have decided to start job hunting again with a vengence. I found out that both the jobs that I had applied for on monster are still available and in a gutsy (for me) move I called the places and tried to see what the deal was. One job hadn't started to interview and the other was re-evaluating what they required of the position. The woman I spoke with was in the HR dept but didn't know too much. Both the top HR guy and his assistant are on vacation this week (a woman....hmmmm...sound fishy? LOL) But she gave me her direct email to resend the resume and samples and she would put that on top and told me to call again next week. I guess it is a new position for their company and they are unsure what to ask for and get what they are looking for. I suggested to her that in the very least I would like to meet with them and if they don't believe that I am what they are looking for I would be willing to help them word their ad in a way to attract a creative person with the qualities they needed. Sometimes I think it is hard for HR people to really "get" what a creative person does in their job. Likewise it is hard for a creative person to articulate a business position. I hope that at least by helping I can keep myself in the running for future positions if not the one available. It isn't the ideal in the fact that I would need to move - not far but I am not driving over an hour to work everyday (it is about 80 miles from me now) but it is the ideal position. It is for a stationary/scrapbooking co. and I am SOOOOOOOOO into that and good at it (modest huh?) LOL
The other job is local and I think I am really qualified and would be a great job too.
I think once I am back FT I might feel better. At least I won't have time to obsess and overanalyze hahahahaha
Laura

and I decided long ago that when Alyse turned 3 (in a couple weeks) that I wouldn't start any new relationships until she was 5...
Why? What is the significance of that age?
Glad you're doing ok!
It sounds like Jacks family has some SERIOUS issues. Everyone in that family sounds so puppeted from the Mom and Dad. How sad and how sad for people to not want to live their own lives and make their own decisions because of money. Isn't worth it too me. Glad you both are still communicating though. And though you say you aren't interested in dating, they always say: When you aren'T looking, love hits.
You don't have to introduce your daughter to anyone. It is your life and your choice and if the right one does come along. Then you'll know.
Big hugs and good luck on the jobs!
- Catherine
"I just felt that between the ages of 3 and 5 they see so much and are so impressionable yet don't understand the logic of things and to explain "dating" to her would be too tough. Granted children at all ages can form attachments to men you date if they involved or even around BUT I felt she would not understand the non-perminency during those ages."
With Alyse not having a father at all it is confusing and I see how attached she is to Jack and told him that he needs to not come around as much - no more staying over and things. It is too confusing for her at this point in time. Of course I don't want anything abrupt and this is my own opinion but because of my inability to go out alone and not expose a new person to her I don't think dating is an option. I usually cannot go out and any time Jack and I are together is at my home or with Alyse - we might be alone together for something outside my house once every other month. And that isn't from comfort - it is from lack of babysitters.
L
Sometimes I think I shouldn't have mentioned the money issue because I now know that has really NOTHING to do with it. I can't speak for his oldest sister but I have a feeling it doesn't in her case either. And the middle sister doesn't give a hoot about any of it! So please know that I think it is personality and not money at the root of all this.
Thanks
L