Awesome trip to Chicago!
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| Mon, 10-27-2008 - 3:01pm |
I love Chicago with a surprising intensity! It has fantastic layers in it's culture. Beautiful old high rises with ornate detailing from the 1800's next to sleek new, shiny, buildings being constructed right now (the Trump Tower). Really nice people there. I went to Mexican food on Friday night, and was enjoying my margarita, chips, and guacamole when a complete stranger approached me and gave me a ticket to the opera "Manon". I have never been to a live opera. It was fantastic, and I ended up being in tears at the end because of the overwhelming talent that was put into every aspect of it. I also needed retail therapy and my old friends Philosophy, Lancome, Nine West, and Ann Taylor did not disappoint. This trip was good therapy to get me away from the following:
1. Guy that I work with that has alot of emotional problems that I have been in love with for 3 years that insists on dating women that are meek, quiet, non threatening and not like me. I am over him after my fling of the summer (yay)
2. Guy that I had a fling with this summer that had much heat and intensity, he's ghosted on me, may or may not hook up with him when he comes back to Alaska next spring
3. Nice, professional, single dad I have an email thing with that is really gun shy about getting involved with anyone.
4. New guy I met online that is really fun, talented, available but that I don't know that I'm romantically interested in.
5. Old high school boyfriend that has been a reliable friend since I found him on facebook 2 weeks ago, but cannot continue to text all the time since he has a pregnant girlfriend he says he is going to leave after she has the baby (really bad potential situation for me, so I am backing away from the oncoming car wreck).
I am romantic enough and dumb enough to still believe that God has something else for me, and what I have to do is live my life and be open to talking to guys without getting too involved with the ones that have big red flags over their heads. I have a hard time with emotional availability in that I am not that emotionally available, SAY I want someone that is, but run shrieking from any guy that is because I'm terrified that he will turn into a monster when I make a commitment since that is what my two husbands did (sigh).

Chicago sounded awesome! I'm glad you had a nice time. I have not been to Chicago..would like to see it sometime. I've never been to an opera either!
As for getting away...I think it is a great therapy. Time to discover and and have fun and be adventerous! Oh yea and retail therapy never hurts either ;o)
As for being emotionally unavailable, I think it will change in time, when you are ready. The heart is good at putting up the protective barriers until you ARE ready. And you will know when you might feel ready.
I absolutely LOVE Chicago!