Back with my tail between my legs
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| Wed, 07-02-2008 - 10:59pm |
You guys were right and I chose not to listen to you all and now here I am back with my tail between my legs.
RG is a single guy who is happy with his singleness and not into a serious relationship. I had to learn it for myself. It was a hurtful lesson too.
I realized it this week when my birthday passed by with not even a "happy birthday". I went to San Diego for a week with my kids and came home with all kinds of stuff for RG. I gave him his gifts on my birthday and we walked around a cruise night and then I went home. And cried on the way home.
Its tough because he still wants to date and talk often. I am with him and loving him but I know thats that all it will be. Its hard to love someone from afar.
Tonight we went to dinner. I was on top of the world being with him and dressed up, and having a good dinner. And he was totally unenthusiastic dressed in a t shirt and jeans. He seemed like could not care less where he was or who he was with. It hurt. I realized that I put my eggs in the wrong basket.
Right now I dont want to meet anyone else. I dont want to date unless its with someone I have known before. I dont want anyone new. I just want to lick my wounds. Put on my ipod and run as far as I can. Somehow I think that if I just dive into my training and forget about men for a while I will be ok.
Its even tough for me to read about everyone elses dates. I am happy for the regulars on the board though who are doing well.
Laurie

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Thanks Mark and have a good weekend. Take care dude.
Laurie
Thanks. You guys here are the best.
Laurie
Laurie,
Sometimes it helps to do a Pro/ Con list when you're trying to make a decision... as in the case of whether to continue with RG or not.
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