Board is slow... want a bf update?
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| Tue, 04-05-2005 - 12:42pm |
LOL. Like I need an excuse to give you all an update. Where is everyone though? It's not just this board. All of the boards I visit are slow today.
Anyways, nothing has changed with my bf's situation. He still has not said he's staying or going, he's still not seeing dd for now for both his and her sakes in case he does move. However, things are not stagnant either. I have made soooo much progress in expressing my feelings, and even just recongizing what those feelings are for myself is huge. I feel like our relationship is changing and growing. When I have expressed how I feel (even when it surprises him) he has responded the way I would want him to (talking to me, comforting me... I've never had that with anyone before). My bf is out of the depression for the most part, or it might be more accurate to say that he's not letting his depression rule his life, he forces himself to get out of bed and stay productive and has for a while now. Although we did sleep until 4:30 pm on Sunday, but it was more because we could. We woke up at 10:30 and I went and got bagels and after eating we went back to sleep, woke at 4:30, got dressed and went to dinner, and later that night watched a movie. I feel so happy right now. I'm just trying to be myself, recongize my feelings, express them and take care of myself, and also enjoying the time with my bf when I have it. I feel busy with dd, work, volunteering, the gym, reading, housework, my recent trip to Boston and my upcoming trip to visit family, but not overly busy or overly stressed. My arthritis flare is gone too btw. I feel really good about everything right now.
Maybe it's the weather getting warmer too - that always feels nice doesn't it?


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Oh, DUH! The illness. That makes sense. Wasn't even thinking how stinking sleep deprived you are probably most of the time, with your body trying to constantly battle just to stay on top of things. Yeah, makes sense now. I was thinking "Gosh, when was 19, I slept till noon..." but NOT since then! Course, that's about when short stuff came along. So much for sleep...
Glad you can take time to physically catch up like that!
Yeah, the blizzard in April is not uncommmon. But for a southeast Michigan gal like me, no matter how long I am here, I am STILL looking for spring in March. It never happens. But it's GORGEOUS today. You know how it is. Snowy one day and then 60 and sunny the next. Mind boggling...
Becky
Yes. I am always surprised at how long the snow can stick around here in the east. It always melts so fast there with the sun and the wild weather changes. But if it wasn't like that, people would never be able to ski in their shorts and that just wouldn't be Colorado.
My bf's depression comes in handy sometimes. He jokes that if he wasn't depressed, I would really slow him down :) I remember fondly thinking of those younger days when I could sleep until noon, and thinking those days were long gone - who knew that with divorce and getting a chronic illness, I would regain the free time and the ability to sleep all day again.
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