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clarity of mind
| Sun, 05-11-2008 - 12:40pm |
Clarity of mind is so important and I gained that yesterday.. Something magical happened- Just like I hoped for..
So as I told you all before I decided to go out on a date/meeting with this ONE GUY (the only one from OLD) that I thought I could try. Last evening I told Biker that I dont know what to do, but I feel I HAVE to go and meet at least few guys and know what I feel. The fact that I have

Yes, I feel really good. I figured that my confused mind was contributing in a big way to my feelings and any small issues we had when we lived together too. I guess he was getting mixed signals from me.
We had a wonderful day, went for nature walk and then we made dinner and had a friend over - at my place.
He said he called him mom for mother's day and she told him again that they all like me very much. I like them v much too. I am sure she asked him about engagement and ring and stuff..
I feel so much better having clarified my mind..So plan is to stay here as much as possible now even if we get engaged, when I move I will move with all my stuff only before my lease ends in June end.
So yes I will keep you all posted.
Yes Rebecca.. I figured one thing- This dating from OLD wont be my thing even if I had decided to keep looking..
I think going to meetup groups with people of similar interest is better..
But now I am sure I dont want to loose Biker. It was a big revelation.. I guess I was too confused because of my own life and things that happened. Biker has been with me through all this patiently and now I know why. The devil was inside me.
When I used to stay with Biker, I know I was constantly questioning why I live with a guy ebfore engagement that was a big reason for discomfort. Add to the fact that my Ex got married recently and many things..
Biker is also in a very very pleasant and happy and romantic mood ever since I "professed" my love for him ;-) after all the confusions I had.
Really feels good to have a clean mind.
Wishing same happiness for all of you here.
It is like a switch that is flipped and he said he was always waiting to hear something like this from me
Ahh, Dance, this just made my heart swell. He truly loves you! He was willing to let you go and discover your own truth, and that is the sign of a strong confidant man who cares for you so much.
I'm so happy you got this clarity. Sometimes it really does take a step back to see what you have already. This is wonderful and I wish you the very happiest of times to come with Biker.
You're doing great in your thinking this all out! You are definatlely headed in the right direction! Your words are