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| Fri, 03-28-2008 - 1:46pm |
....or chocolate or a really great girls night out. Any takers?
I really don't want to get into the details as they are exhausting but I had the biggest argument with BE last night and we are not talking. It had nothing to do with his daughter or her kids. I had last night planned with him and when he suggested staying out till 11pm socializing instead of the "in time" I had asked for I snapped. He claims I made a scene and embarrassed him. He is re-thinking being with me because he feels I am too reactive. I am re-thinking the relationship too because I feel that he triggers me- I get hurt and dissappointed which triggers a snap reaction- and he hates that. I don't know becasue I feel justified in beibg let down.
He asked if I wanted to take some "time out" from each other and

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Thanks for the link, Steph- I just checked it out and it looks like a place I might bew able to get some further insight from!
This board would not be the same without you
Going to an alanon meeting will do you good.
Alanon?
I agree that Alanon is a lifesaver for so many. But - I couldnt grasp it. & here is why ... & beleive me, i have debated this (well, not debate - but talked about it a lot in the past) - but i feel like for SOME people, "leaving it all up to God" (hello, control freak here, lol - so THAT was SO hard for me - but i know it was the right thing to do as i could not control him).
Alanon is a great idea. I didn't go to Alanon... but i went to a faith based recovery group called Recover For The City... I started going when I was married to an addict/alcoholic in 2004... I continued going for 3 1/2 years. I made many good life lasting friendships.... I met many people who walked the same walk.. who understood me and I'm so thankful for those meetings. I found truth... A truth that will last a lifetime... something that no one can take away from me ever... not a man and not the troubles of this world. I learned how to define myself... I learned how to accept the good, bad and ugly about myself... and found that there are a lot more good in me than bad or ugly. I can laugh now at my mistake...I am not afraid. I'm not perfect but I know that i am accepted by a higher power.
For me, turning everything over to a higher power was the only thing left to try.... Thick head... yah, i know all about that.... My prayer for
.... My prayer for
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