The Date....LONG
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| Mon, 02-12-2007 - 4:33pm |
Sorry so long....
So I drive to his house at around 7.30 and we jump in his car and take a ride down the coast. We’re both nervous but in that kind of excited way because we just met face to face. I’m relating stories of this and that place as we pass it because it’s where I grew up and he is graciously listening and trying to really pay attention to me by giving me eye contact as he’s driving…cute! So we’re passing all these places and they’re packed so we decide to go further down the coast to a place he knows. The place we go to is also pretty packed but the bouncer/doorman tells us that upstairs is more private. So we go upstairs, there is a bar but there is no place to really eat. There is a cushioned bench along two walls so we sit down. So we have two drinks and we talk but I’m having a hard time reading him. He mentioned he had a kid so I addressed that. Apparently he signed off his rights to the child so that the mom wouldn’t make both of their lives hard….here is the thing….I was the kid whose dad signed off on, and it’s a miserable position to be in so that kind of rubbed me the wrong way. But we’re talking and it’s going nicely. He tries to get a table but the bouncer/doorman says he doesn’t know where the hostess is…blah blah blah….basically says, not gonna help you. So my date returns and is very irritated by this and I tell him no big deal so we decide to leave to go and get a bite to eat. At this point it is around 10pm. So we go to kind of a dive place but I like it because it’s so oldschool…the seats were velour with vinyl (awesome!). So it seems to be going well but the way he looks at me kind of makes me nervous. Because you know “the look” like he’s planning a move….it makes me VERY NERVOUS! So I don’t make eye contact for very long and I’m trying to be cool (obviously not working). So we’re about to order and I CATCH HIM CHECKING OUT THE WAITRESS. Not just caught his eye but then he follows her as she goes around the booth. Now, I can give the benefit of the doubt if he was trying to get her attention to order but it sure didn’t look like that. So that kinda set me in a weird mood. Anyway, we eat, talk about movies which we are not on the same page about (not a good sign as far as I know). So we go to head back to his house. BUT, before that he goes to some out of the way liquor store and goes inside. I was going to join him but he suggested I stay inside. So I call my girlfriend freaking out because I have no idea what to do “back at his place”! I’m a huge nerd. Then it occurs to me…is he buying condoms!! So I’m kind of in that “you’ve got another thing coming” type of mood but I relax a little as we head back to his place. So we’re at his place…he complains about the 3rd roommate and we go to his room which is immaculate. He has a couch for a bed (pull-out I assume) so we sit on the couch.
Now, here is my problem…if I just want to make-out or get with a guy I have no nervousness what so ever…BUT apparently if I’m trying to be “good” I am struck with nerves as if I was a 15 year old who hasn’t been kissed yet! So I’m sitting on the couch, legs crossed, arms crossed, jacket still on. Might as well have “Absolutely NOT” written on my forehead. He has a drink and I don’t because I have to drive back and after an hour or so I decide to head out. Walks me to my car and I stupidly made some type of smart @ss remark about dinner…my attempt to be funny but made him profusely apologize about not going somewhere nice. He goes for the hug and goes to kiss me on the cheek but in my nervousness I turn my head toward him and we accidently peck…..SO EMBARASSING!!! I get in the car and begin chastising myself for being such a retard!
Bleh…..I think I need more experience at this because I have no idea how to deal with anything!!! I’m a total nerd because he asked me to call him the next day, which I did…at 11:30 at night after I was a little tipsy from a party I had at my house….DUMB. Called yesterday to apologize for calling so late and haven’t heard from him and I’m not really planning on hearing from him again…..I am a disaster!

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