feelings

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Registered: 03-25-2002
feelings
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Sat, 10-11-2008 - 10:02pm

well, i learned some lessons... hopefully i will grow personally from them all.... I feel totally out of the game.... not having a "going out" sitter has me depressed... I guess there are some disadvantages to becoming an extrovert... i feed off of other people and sharing joy... and now this isolation has me feeling very drained. :(


as for MM, i don't know where things stand. i've backed off but don't want to "look" like i've back off, ya know. he sent me an email this morning with links to a bunch of songs. he said, so that i have something to do while i'm bored. And he just called me too. wow, that surprised me. I didn't think i was going to hear from him this weekend. It went to voice mail unfortunately... i guess i'll call back after the children are in bed...


i've told myself that yesterdays talk was by no means a "break up" talk and i haven't over thought it... but felt today a little bitter. which isn't a good thing. feel like whether it's the hot guy or the nice guy... being a single mom complicates things... i know everyone on this board can relate.


i was sooo depressed that i actually sought validation from the ex (the first ex not the second

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Registered: 02-10-2008
In reply to: loonybunny
Sat, 10-11-2008 - 11:11pm
Hi Loonybunny. I deal with this emotional vacume when I'm at home with just the kids and me also. I long for some quiet down time, and then when I actually have it, I start getting frantic emotionally. My work is very social, so I don't have time to hear myself think. The kids loud playing is what I hear when we are at home on one of my days off. It makes me yearn to fall in love again, but I try to remind myself that when I was married, being lonely felt worse to me since because of the commitment, I could not hope that someone new and distracting would be just around the next bend.
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Registered: 11-23-2007
In reply to: loonybunny
Sun, 10-12-2008 - 7:01am

Hi LB,


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Registered: 03-25-2002
In reply to: loonybunny
Sun, 10-12-2008 - 10:08am

thanks for reminding me about HOPE and FAITH.


faith : the evidence of things unseen and the certainty of things hoped for...


faith, hope and love: and the greatest of these is love.


the faith of a mustard seed can move mountains.


I believe,


Loonybunny