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| Thu, 08-14-2008 - 10:02pm |
I may end up being sharply disappointed tonight... BUT.
I'm going to my neighborhood karaoke, anyway.... It's thursday and i didn't hear from hottie2 all week... could mean he's cooled off completely or maybe just playing it cool. don't know. He already told me that he goes every Thursday so i know i'll run into him. But i'm going anyway. If anything, he tends to leave just at about the time i get there sooo it won't be too akward if he's trying to avoid me.
I caved. I sent him a text message saying "i might make it out. U?" and he replied "yea".... Last week, when he texted me first asking if i was going out.. i replied "not tonight" ... Last week, he seemed interested in seeing me. even said "call me".... but he's been cooling off ever since.. so not sure if i'm setting myself up for disappointment ... or if i'll just have a nice casual night out like normal.
Loonybunny~
who's saying to herself once again

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It's my neighborhood bar... it's casual and i don't need to have any big expectations. That's what makes "neighborhood" cool.
Yes, i ran into hottie2. At first i didn't see him. I just sat casually up at the bar to chill. Signed up for a song to sing. Hottie2 came up to me. Talked to me. Said he was my "boy" and i was his "girl". BUT
He was a bit too cool, too casual for me.... maybe a bit too friendly with someone else. I said, if you are interested in her, that's cool, i'll give you all your space. no hard feelings. He said no, she's just a friend. Okay so i stuck around. Had a dancing, casual fun time... but i still felt a little out of place... when he and i danced his guy friend got in the middle and broke it up.
My feeling is hottie2 is
the strength will come from within.. not from a hottie
Now THAT is what I'm talking about!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Speaking of inner healing... i'm going to pat myself on the back for how i handled myself last night, too, with hottie2. I recall a night with Leo when i felt he wasn't that into me and i freaked.... lost all composure because he was so cute (think Tom Welling). I remember a post about how my insides just turned to jello and i'm sure i made a fool of myself. In the end, Leo came around... he was a fun fling.
So, last night instead of turning to jello I smiled and danced. I didn't freak. I even danced and talked with the girl i thought he was flirting with... maybe he was, maybe he wasn't but i didn't let it get to me.
Good Job Loony,
"My feeling is hottie2 is a friend.. no fling and of course no potential..."
Again, I think you should stay away from the idea of a fling. Your reaction to seeing TG proves to ME that you are NOT just looking for a fling, you got hit really hard seeing TG- and I believe it's because he was MORE than just a fling or FWB.
You can tell yourself you're only looking for a fling, but I think you're deluding yourself: you DO want a stable and loving relationship, you're just not sure how to start.
First step: stop talking/ flirting with guys in their 20's. I know that there are exceptions, but MOST guys in their 20's are not going to want to settle down with a woman in her mid 30's, especially one with five children if they're looking to start a family of their own.
A guy in his late 30's, early 40's who's never had children but would welcome a family is a better bet. He'll likely be established in his career, own his own vehicle and enjoy being with a vibrant woman who looks ten yrs younger than her 36 yrs!
You make a good point. TG started in my mind as a fling. He kinda pushed for exclusivity and made me believe it was a serious relationship. And just when i went there and called him my boyfriend (a word i hadn't used sinced before my marriage... we're talking
I hope you have fun with the kids this weekend. What do you have planned? I hope the weather is nicer than here! It's cold & rainy. Libby is meant to be playing school soccer & refereeing this morning but instead she's watching cartoons feeling sick with a bad cold & sore throat.
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Plans with the children.. well, nothing spectacular. We play guitar hero, watch Smallville videos, other movies, conversations about school etc... And probably the pool.. the little ones love it. Nothing spectacular but heart filling nonetheless.
My children love your siggy by the way.. whenever they see one of your posts they comment on how cute the teddybear is...
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