Good monday morn smack in the face...
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Good monday morn smack in the face...
| Mon, 09-29-2008 - 10:10am |
Well remember that Ive recently posted an OLD ad on Match? Guess who else is on there...FP YUP and I got a scathing email from him...he left 2 voice mails this weekend as well but didnt have my phone.
Now hes being a real Summers Eve and not sure how to handle it. You know the worst part - when you look at our profiles and everything we are looking for its us. How do you like that?

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(actually my year anniversary of leaving yesterday...whooo hooo
YAY!!!!
Do you still feel mushy and excited around him? Are there still sparks?
No I dont think so its more of a comfort, like an old pair of favorite jeans you just never want to part with but get to chunky to fit in only to find youve lost some weight and fit in them again. Does that make sense? Everything comes back to him, all our similar likes, past times, how romantic he is (always has been..sometimes a bit over the top even) I told him about our sexual chemisty and how i have some serious body issues after CP and how im not the 19 year old he once loved and it bothers me and my fears that if im not up to old standards for him he may do what CP ultimately did
Heres part of an earlier one
I want to say again that I'm sorry about the way I acted and what I did or said. You were right that a lot of things needed to be said. I knew that a long time ago,but was afraid to say anything, and was wondering who would say something first.That was my mistake for not stepping up. And for me a crack addition would be easyer to kick than my love for you. So where do we go from here? Maybe e-mail dating would work best for now? It's gotten us talking again, plus it helps my typing skills. the spelling still sucks. LOL.
Holy Smokes he's still got it for you bad!!
He sounds open, honest. Sincere. I do know what you mean about that old pair of jeans that you can't let of. Sparks are not everything and compatibility and companionship and trust mean more in the long run.
I guess the question you will answer in time with FP is whether these jeans fit you and what you want/desire and need in a long term guy. He sounds passionate in his writing. Will he bring that out in person?
Will he bring that out in person?
yeah he will...i guess i was sort of a s###head this summer to him. He does still have it for me doesnt he? Hes got all the qualities i ever wanted, and all past relationships were always held up to him for comparison. Honestly i can recall one guy that snapped my head off because I was always going on about FP...who knows Ill keep you posted.
Ok heres the latest...he would kill me if he knew i was sharing these...I sent him an email worried that i was "broken" and this was his reply...
Your not broken,and I am really good at fixing thoes things. And after all this time,and all that we have been thru over the years. You think I'll get tired of you and look else where. You are mistaking,your 35 years old and I am still chasing after you. Because you still make my heart melt...
Well he sure has a way with words! That were
Sounds like it might be time for a pros and cons list.
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