Having a down day...
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Having a down day...
| Sat, 06-10-2006 - 1:48pm |
Hi
I posted a week or two ago but will refresh my story. My ex hunsabd and I split on very bad terms and he is now off in la la land with his new wife and their new baby & of course my daughter right now because it is "his weekend". My boyfriend (now ex) and I just recently finalized a long drawn out break up and now I am having my own little pity party. Every weekend my boyfriend and I spent together from Friday after work right through till Monday morning. Now I am sitting here twidling my thumbs. I know people will say - get out with friends, get a hobby etc. etc. Well that is easier said then done. My friends are all married & busy with their own families on weekends in the summer & I have no interest in any kind of hobby.
I don't even have any motivation to clean my pig sty of a house and even though I got 2 hours of sleep last night I am wide wide awake! I just walk around my house aimlessly. My ex boyfriend told me the other day that I am a "victim" when it comes to my ex husband. I don't think I am but I do feel like I am to tired to do anything but try to keep the peace, whatever the cost. My ex boyfriend and I had the first actual fight of our entire relationship (rather...what used to be a relationship) last night so that has left me a little glum. I needed closure from him - he had no answers and gave me my house keys back - really underlying the finality of it I guess. Anyways that was at 2am and I still am just feeling "numb" from everything in life right now. Dating isn't worth it in the long run - it is just so frustrating and I wonder if there even is such a thing as "happily ever after" anymore. Anyways - thanks for listening - I am just having a down day I guess.
I posted a week or two ago but will refresh my story. My ex hunsabd and I split on very bad terms and he is now off in la la land with his new wife and their new baby & of course my daughter right now because it is "his weekend". My boyfriend (now ex) and I just recently finalized a long drawn out break up and now I am having my own little pity party. Every weekend my boyfriend and I spent together from Friday after work right through till Monday morning. Now I am sitting here twidling my thumbs. I know people will say - get out with friends, get a hobby etc. etc. Well that is easier said then done. My friends are all married & busy with their own families on weekends in the summer & I have no interest in any kind of hobby.
I don't even have any motivation to clean my pig sty of a house and even though I got 2 hours of sleep last night I am wide wide awake! I just walk around my house aimlessly. My ex boyfriend told me the other day that I am a "victim" when it comes to my ex husband. I don't think I am but I do feel like I am to tired to do anything but try to keep the peace, whatever the cost. My ex boyfriend and I had the first actual fight of our entire relationship (rather...what used to be a relationship) last night so that has left me a little glum. I needed closure from him - he had no answers and gave me my house keys back - really underlying the finality of it I guess. Anyways that was at 2am and I still am just feeling "numb" from everything in life right now. Dating isn't worth it in the long run - it is just so frustrating and I wonder if there even is such a thing as "happily ever after" anymore. Anyways - thanks for listening - I am just having a down day I guess.

It's perfectly fine to have a down day, especially after a break up.