He called

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Registered: 02-19-2004
He called
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Fri, 05-13-2005 - 7:24pm

I didn't think he would, but I thought he might. I told him when he left last Saturday that I needed to be alone for now, that I would want to see him but I can't. But from his perspective (apparently) there is no reason we have to stop seeing each other. He wants to see me, I want to see him. That's how we've stayed together thus far. I can't fault him for wanting to see me, we really are good together.

Thank goodness my friend is coming into town tonight. It was so much easier to say "I want to see you but I just can't, and anyways I have to pick my friend up at the airport in a few hours." I have to stay strong if he calls in a few days after she's gone. I know I can do it. But it's so hard. I do want to see him, I am glad he wants to see me. I also know I want that future and committment and he can't give me that.

THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had just downed 4-5 chocolate oreo-type cookies and 1/3 of a bag of potato chips right before he called. Now I feel like I'm going to barf.




Edited 5/13/2005 7:28 pm ET ET by firstamendment

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iVillage Member
Registered: 02-19-2004
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 4:42pm
Thank you so much. That is how I feel - I just have to get the feelings out and posting does help. I will look for the new M&Ms :)

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Registered: 05-13-2005
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 5:47pm
Darth Vader M&Ms - wow - I will have to look for those. Chocolate is the great cure for everything. Of course...so is shopping! Even a $3 Walmart belt does me good :-)
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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 6:01pm
They are dark chocolate and they come in the COOLEST colors like silvery grey and blue and purple and burgundy....very "space-like"
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Registered: 02-19-2004
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 6:15pm
Oh, dark chocolate is my favorite. Have you found them at the grocery store? In vending machines? I'm very interested now.

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Registered: 05-13-2005
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 6:21pm
Yes - we HAVE to have these!!
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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: firstamendment
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 7:04pm

Yes, I found them in my local grocery store, and they should also be in theatres near you. I have not seen them in vending machines though. Use the force to find them. ;)

http://us.mms.com/us/mpire/

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