I did it!!!

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Registered: 01-03-2008
I did it!!!
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Sat, 09-13-2008 - 12:09am

Of course, by "it", I mean that I actually had a conversation with bf about something I was terrified to talk to him about. I don't think I could have done it if people on here hadn't encouraged me to go out on a limb.


I felt so badly for leading him on yesterday and then leaving, that when he called me, I told him exactly that. I shocked myself. The words left my mouth before I realized what I had said. I waited for him to run, balk, stammer a surprised response...something. Instead, he chuckled and quipped, "Ah, but we don't do those things anymore...remember your rule?" I could hear him smiling over the phone. This just bolstered my confidence and I jumped in with both feet.


I told him that I made a big mistake and I regretted that rule. I said it may have been right for me at the time, but I didn't feel that way now. He chuckled...in a good way. I was so happy that he was receptive that I joked with him that he had better be paying attention because admitting this mistake was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I could also tell I took him by surprise...and not an unpleasant surprise at all. He immediately began joking affectionately with me. Not rudely...more like (and I'm aware this sounds weird) between husband and wife type joking. That level of familiarity where he knew I would know exactly what he meant without him having to explain it in great and painful detail.


We spent the rest of the evening discussing possible trips to take this fall and winter. New to the trip planning for us was the implication that he would like to take some weekend trips. All of our trips so far have been day trips. This would be new and definitely mean something as he views spending the night together with nothing else going on as an extremely committed move. He also decided last night that he needs to add a deck to my house next summer. Planning ahead...I think even I know this is a good sign!


Thanks for all of your help and support! I'll keep you updated!


Almalibra

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: almalibra
Sat, 09-13-2008 - 10:55am
How wonderful!!!