I have learned this...
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| Fri, 05-12-2006 - 7:46pm |
I have learned many things but I have learned more about myself than anything. I have learned not be so open towards things. I need to slow down and not analyze but feel things out. Certainly it isn't a good idea to get involved with someone you work with because you have that constant reminder. The reality is that she may call but I have learned that I have to do what is BEST for ME and that is move on. That is the healthy thing. I am trying and its hard when u haven't had these feelings in a long long time. Murphys Law says she'll be back when I am in a relationship if at all which means that there is someone else out there waiting for the same thing I am. I will find someone and that person will be great beyond all imagination. In the meantime I will just continue working and spending time with friends. My feelings will wilt away but it will take time, that I know. By opening myself up and being sooo "soft" I end up hurting me more than anyone. Being open and honest is one thing but allowing yourself to form your own reality aside from what is really going on is a really bad habit. My psychologist is working with me and I meet with her tomorrow. Its hard when u don't have family close and you don't have that support group that is full of positive reinforcement. I have had some here but many of you seem bitter and bitter to the extent of being angry JMO. I certainly respect everyones pt of view and I have come to realize that I made many mistakes however I went in with the wrong mind set. There was bad timing. Generally speaking, it just wasn't meant to be....gee...how many of you told me that long ago. Anyways, if all of this doesn't show that I have learned something, but not everything, then I don't know what does.
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Holy crap, that's accurate! And, I asked my friends more about the place. Turns out, there are railroad tracks behind it, I just never noticed them before. Both bartenders are blonde. There is a picnic table outside, set up for smokers, since we have the ban on indoor smoking now, and the tables inside are evidently pretty hideously red. I've only been to this place once before, so I'm pretty much relying on my friends' descriptions, and I just asked them for a description, no reason why.
Be, even if I don't meet anyone when I go, I will always be impressed that you were as accurate as this! I've always considered myself pretty open minded, and I'm trying hard to keep an open mind, but I've honestly never encountered anything like this.
I just hope I recognize him *when* I see him! (Notice I said when and not if!!)
Moody- who's ready, willing, and able
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