I have no faith .....

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Registered: 03-15-2004
I have no faith .....
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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 5:35am

I dont think this will be a pathetic post, but as i begin to type it ... it may be. lol So, WARNING.


1st off, today is the 4th anniversary of losing my mom. I just still cannot beleive it. I cant fathom it. How can she NOT BE HERE????

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 3:00pm

((((Hugs to you Rebecca)))) on the loss of your Mom.

Rosecolouredspecs
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Registered: 12-28-2004
Mon, 01-07-2008 - 3:32pm

Very understandable that you miss your mom. When I miss people that are gone I like to think they are looking down on me, guiding me. She still guides you. How else could you be dealing with your life without the love and guidance she gave you in the past to show you how.

From your posts, I think the guy sounds genuine. You know yourself how unreliable most online guys are so probably in the back of your mind you're thinking he will be the same way.

Try not to worry about your weight. You are a beautiful women with lots to offer. I think you're just in a funk because you are tired. GET SOME SLEEP GIRLEE!

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 01-07-2008 - 3:42pm

Your Mom looks like she is a beautiful woman and I am sure that you is helping you walk every path you are on now as she surely does with Averey

April

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 6:08pm

Thank you all. I am feeling better. I slept from 9-2:30 & that did me wonders, lol.

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 7:52pm
Thanks April. Yes, she was a beautiful woman - & the sweetest, most loving, giving woman i ever knew.

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 7:53pm
Your album and everything you write is very beautiful!! Thank you for sharing that with us.
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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 7:56pm

Yes, she was so special. & in some ways i wish she were here to help me thru all i went thru with X the past few years, & she definatly would have been SO THRILLED i finally got out of that marriage. But on the other hand, it would kill her to see my & Averey so hurt over the years. Then again, I am a huge believer in the "after life" & i am sure she is very well aware of what still goes on in our lives. But boy, it sure would be nice to be able to call her up & cry with her some days!


& you know, youre SO right about the "pond". Its like most guys in their mid 40's & under, want women who are in their late 20's - mid late 30's. Now that the big 4-0 has hit, the pond has sort of receded. But I truly was just having

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 8:09pm

Awww,

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 8:12pm
Aw sweetie - read my other post to citylife - it DOES get better, i promise xxxooo

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Rebecca, Mom to Averey, 2/8/00, Kibo, Sana & Zuri too!

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Mon, 01-07-2008 - 8:14pm
Thanks Al!

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