I have no faith .....
Find a Conversation
I have no faith .....
| Mon, 01-07-2008 - 5:35am |
I dont think this will be a pathetic post, but as i begin to type it ... it may be. lol So, WARNING.
1st off, today is the 4th anniversary of losing my mom. I just still cannot beleive it. I cant fathom it. How can she NOT BE HERE????


Pages
Well you made me cry.....your Mom sounds so incredible...it is so true ...only the good die young.
Dude, I'm so sorry for your feelings of loss with your
That album is beautiful it really depicted an involved nana in Avery's life. I cried when I looked through it, especially the pic of Avery looking like she was praying at the toombstone. (((HUGS))) I can't imagine what I'll do when my mom's time comes. Like you, I just can't picture her not here and I am so sorry for your loss.
As for your prospective guy, reading what you've wrote, my opinion is he in interested and he's handling things the way a guy would. As for not emailing much, he does phone right? I think that's a good sign. And him texting you while in NYC I think is a great sign! I'll interject that my current guy is NOT the phone type which drives me nuts LOL He'd rather send me an email than pick up the phone and call me. This really bugged my and made me wonder "ok he's not as interested as I thought" in the beginning, but his words and actions told me very differently, he's just not a phone guy. So I thought that might relieve you a bit to know there are other guys who kind of act disinterested when that's not the case. As for your self esteem issues, I can relate. I was very concerned about posting pictures on POF when I first joined since you know ppl do a first judgement on the picture before reading the profile, its human nature. But your self confidence and beauty really shines through. You have very striking beautiful features that shine when you smile and guys aren't like us women. They don't see stuff the same way we do. He liked your pictures because he saw a beautiful woman and the little bit he's talked with you he liked you even more based on your personality. That's why he wants to meet you. I think its a natural mechanism (I know I do this at times) to self sabatoge if we can't find something concrete that is wrong with the guy/situation. We'll try creating one so we can prepare ourselves fo rthe disappointment of things not working out. So we can basically sit back and go "yea, I knew it wasn't meant to be" kind of thing. I think it was Mark who said something really neat that stuck with me, something along the lines of don't look for all the reasons it won't work, look at the reasons why its working right now and enjoy it. Go with it. See where it takes you.
Pages