I made a HUGE accompishment

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I made a HUGE accompishment
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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 9:28am

I am so proud of myself. I seen C today. After several weeks of hearing nothing from him he sent me a text last night,actually a few.When I seen him today I literally felt like I would break down.I didnt though.I was calm and collected....regardless of how nervous I felt inside and felt the urge to throw up.


I let him know in no way he wasnt

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 9:39am

Good for you..and Im happy you have some time before D gets back. Let your emotions settle down and give your head a rest and just let it come to you. It will come in time...I swear!


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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 9:59am
Thanks,I feel almost like I am bordering on a emotional melt down lately. I have literally worked myself in the ground and I was wanting to just enjoy some time off and include a male perhaps..I have almost have no faith left at all in the male sex.God help that I am the mother of a male.I am trying my butt off to raise him right..if nothing else I know that if he turns out to be just like the rest of them..it wasnt because I didnt TRY with him.
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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 10:24am

You know I think he will appreciate women more and respect them more seeing how hard you work and knowing the love you give him...OMG if anything no girl will ever be good enough to bring home to his momma ;0) Thats a good thing!


I know the feeling of emotional overload....and the feeling of wanting male company but dont force it. Thats when you end up with a SB (scumbag) like my ex

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 10:50am
Thanks,I think I am going to leave the male species alone for awhile.I just found out that C was actually over chatting up one of my friends.My god how blind and stupid am I? Really makes me feel good about myself that I cant see how blind and stupid I am. Thats what happens when you want to believe the best in people. I tried. He is such a idiot but it makes me madder at myself I keep asking myself WTF could be wrong with me that I cant see because I really feel like a idiot.
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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 11:00am

I keep asking myself WTF could be wrong with me that I cant see because I really feel like a idiot.


Don't beat yourself up over that.

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 11:16am
Thanks Rose, I just hope it gets better
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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 11:38am

It will get better Sunshine...of that I can promise.

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 12:11pm

Hey Sunshine.

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 1:19pm

Hi Mark,I am glad to get a male perspective. I just wish it wouldnt sting about this morning as bad. I know this too shall pass I personally hate just how I felt about him and everything else this morning. I want to just get past it.


I have nothing left to do but do what I have been doing all along...get on with my life and continue to try to make myself the best that I can be.Thats my new goal I had set for myself and I guess today also gives more incentive as to why I need to continue on.I dont feel that I understand men and I am not sure that I ever will...


I totally get the emotional bandaids though.Right now though I think I would need a whole box!

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Mon, 03-03-2008 - 2:19pm

I spent the whole weekend doing little things to improve myself so now its staying motivated.I worked out and tanned..Im wanting to be a better me and get healthier and look hotter!


You go, missy!


This has been the key for me lately. I started focusing on myself again- better diet, more activity, more interests outside of my relationship. Now I feel empowered and myself again. My SO has kind of done

~Pacific~

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