I should have stayed home...
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| Sun, 07-20-2008 - 10:52pm |
I got home around 4:30 am this morning and in my bed around 5:30. I was hammered, which is an awful thing, because I drove home. SO HUGE mistake. I can't even imagine why they let me drive. I'm just surprised that I did that. Lesson learned though and I'm going to stop drinking for awhile and get back to being smoke free again. I started up 3 weeks ago with my health, job, move, school and money situation. Just a mess.
Anyway, I woke up at ten this morning and my head was raging. It seems I was also busy writing emails last night before I went to bed. Don't ask, we won't talk about it, but I'm purely embarrassed. Darn. I'm not going to be able to face him again. LOL.
Oh well. I knew I didn't want to be alone last night and I knew if I do go out, it might be trouble. So at least I tagged the trouble part and spent money I shouldn't have.
I headed back to bed at eleven and woke up at 2 in the afternoon. Went back to bed at 2:30 and woke up at 8:30 this evening. Watched a movie until a little after ten and now I'm going to head to bed again. I haven't slept this much in ages and I can truly say, I'm embarrassed about last night, so today it feels like a keep your head in the covers day and throw a pity party. LOL.
No hardware, housework or anything. I just had no energy and an AWFUL hang over with a headache

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JH
Thanks! I didn't do anything bad last night, but get crazy drunk and a small crying jag lapse. LOL. I guess
JH
Oh, i've been there, too... where i felt like "last night just wasnt' worth it"... where i thought drinking more would help me feel better, but it made me feel worse. And i can relate to the drunk crying lapses.... in the morning i can't remember what was soo sad the night before... for me, it's usually the alcohol, plus all the stress, plus overly tired... equals crying myself to sleep.
But a new day IS a new day. It's good that you were able to spend the day recouperating and rejuvanating (i'm too tired to look up the correct spelling, sorry)....
keep moving forward. Love,
Loonybunny
Oh, Sweetie, don’t be so hard on yourself.
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Tracy
Oh, I hear you. The dog and the kids are cuddly, but just not doing it for me. When my ex first left I would drown myself in vodka, just to make the time pass. I also gained a HUGE amount of weight, cause I would eat to not feel so lonely.
Do you think men ever feel this way?
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