I'm an Idiot

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Registered: 03-19-2008
I'm an Idiot
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Thu, 10-09-2008 - 7:00am

Last night while making love with EMT I open my big better left shut mouth and tell him that I love him. I get nothing back. Zilch. Nada. Nothing. Oh except on the way home in the pouring rain I get pulled over for speeding. The ironic thing is for the 6 years I have lived in New England I have had someone on my butt every time I drive because I refuse to speeed. I guess the police figure that anyone out driving in the pouring rain at 1am is drunk and I dont even drink. But fortunately for me his partner pulls someone else over who is not acting normal and he needs to leave before he has a chance to ticket me. I guess there is something to be said for acting normal. It saved me a speeding ticket.

So I feel like an A$$ right now. I dont do drugs or drink. I run so as soon as the kids are off to school my running shoes and ipod are coming out and I am going to run as far as my legs will carry me with the Chili Peppers blaring in my ears.

Laurie

anonymous
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Registered: 03-19-2008
Thu, 10-09-2008 - 4:05pm

Mark,


I always appreciate your 2 cents. Actually its more like your buck and a half. Which is a good thing as you have valuble advice and input personal experience which really helps.


Here is the web address to my photobucket photoalbum of today's run pics. Its simple and painless with only about a dozen or so photos. Great fall foliage reflecting on a mirror lake. Now you can see one of the other reasons I run.


http://s174.photobucket.com/albums/w104/laddoms/Ashley%20Res%20Run/


It might have to be copied and pasted in the web browser address bar.


Laurie

anonymous
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Registered: 05-06-2008
Thu, 10-09-2008 - 7:27pm

My feeling on those three words are... When I decide to say those words to CK, it will be as a gift of giving my love to him or actually saying what I feel I am already giving him.

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Registered: 05-06-2008
Thu, 10-09-2008 - 10:32pm
Were we married to the same guy? My ex said ILY every day, was doing something on the side on and off for years. I almost felt like he said it like you say "Bless you" after a sneeze...automatic, no thought.
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Registered: 05-06-2008
Thu, 10-09-2008 - 10:37pm

You got caught for speeding because your mind was freaking out and you weren't present. Makes for a stressful night, for sure.

Saying ILY first is not a crime and if you feel bad about it you shouldn't. If he didn't respond, he just has to process it first. It doesn't mean he is heading for the hills.

Some people, like my ex, say it constantly and don't mean it, some, like my mom NEVER say it, but I know how she loves me and my brother and sister more than life itself.

On another note, I hate driving in Massachusetts.

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Registered: 03-19-2008
Fri, 10-10-2008 - 12:32am

It was a college town at 1am. I think at that time they pull everybody over assuming you are drunk. Fortunately for me there were some drunk college students just behind me. I can thank them for saving me a ticket.

I hate driving through Mass too.

Laurie

anonymous
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Fri, 10-10-2008 - 2:40am

New England fall is the BEST!

I liked Jersey autumn as well.

Mark now living in the land of (mostly) evergreens, who went to Boston U but did not venture out of the city to really enjoy the foliage

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Registered: 03-19-2008
Fri, 10-10-2008 - 6:53am

Did you see the pics?

I'd give up new england fall to move back home anyday.

Laurie

anonymous
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Registered: 07-19-2008
Fri, 10-10-2008 - 7:44am

Those pics are amazing and the ones with the relections could be post cards. You take some amazing pics. I have to admit its the one thing I miss about living in CO, there was a huge difference in seasons. Sometimes here not so much. Autumn rt now feels like spring.


JL

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Registered: 03-19-2008
Fri, 10-10-2008 - 8:40am

JL, I grew up in CO. Where are you now? Thanks for the complement. I am actually the world's worst photographer. I just got a few good rare good shots yesterday.

Laurie

anonymous
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Registered: 03-19-2008
Fri, 10-10-2008 - 8:42am

I dont remember if I replied to this yesterday or not. But I meant it. It was thought out. I felt horrible that night. But after the support I read on this board I feel fine. Today even better. You guys are great.

Laurie

anonymous