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| Mon, 05-12-2008 - 11:51pm |
I'm not going to lie... it hurts...
At 8:00 pm i called him to make sure plans had not changed.. he said we are all set to meet tonight.
But what happened???? I called at 11 pm when i was about to leave work.. his friend answered the phone and said he had passed out.. that he had a hard day at work and drank too many margaritas...
I said, are you sure he doesn't want me to wake him up... last time we had a miscommunication and i don't want another one... His friend said, "trust me he's out..." I said, "can i at least just get my camera? i really want it back..." His friend said let me look for it and i'll call you back. I said, okay call back because i don't want to wait all night.
His friend called back and said i can't find it.. i'll tell TG to call you tomorrow to give you back your camera... I said okay.
So i'm back at work.. no need to leave now.. i might as well just stay here and keep working...
It hurts. I'm mad.. BUT i'm not driving over to his house... yay for me... I could REALLY use a friend right now....!!!!!
So now, i think he's an alcoholic... i'm upset because he knew we were suppose to talk tonight but instead i think he purposely got drunk so he would have an excuse not to talk to me... OR he really did work hard (well, i know he did... and i know he got little sleep last night....) BUT at 8 pm, it was like yes yes let's talk tonight...
I guess he doesn't care...
I'll be alright!!!! I know this.. but it hurts tonight. My new plan is to assume we are broken up... not call him or text him.. and just sit back and wait for my camera.... he knows i want it back so i don't see the point in hounding him over it..
But sure he might call me tomorrow... I still may feel the need to talk to him ... ya know... to have that closure... but who am i kidding.. when is a breakup ever "no hard feelings...."
okay change of plans i did send a text.... i wanted to tell him a piece of my mind... i said "i don't hate you.. unless that's what you want.. i'm hurt... at this point i'm assuming we are broken up... no strings.. but i do need my camera back."
How was that????
Loonybunny

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Oh good you do sound better. I would get that camera for you if I was there. I really think we all care a lot Loony -you are like one of our sisters and we do want the very best for you. Glad that savanna reminded you of possibilities. And I love Shrimps post about the tackle and the bus.
Keep the head up girl!
EXACTLY, Shrimps!
Hoping your doing well tonight, Loony...
Yep, it does feel like we are sisters here (and brothers). I agree with that and I hope you know and feel every ounce of love and encouragement that is coming your way! You are so loved Loony...and you are not alone. Even beyond the board, we're with you in spirit when you're feeling low.
Head up and smile, friend..
Thanks Pac.. i slept good last night..i was exhausted... i got home at 11:30 pm and crashed...
and i made it a whole day yesterday without calling or texting him... let's see if i can make it today..
one day at a time...
Loonybunny
Any time you feel like texing/ calling him- text or call someone else... or go for a walk or have a bath or bake cookies or read a book or...
Or go back and read the FU text.
I am glad you got a good nights rest...
Yes...one day at a time. It is wonderful you have gone one day. Now only think about today...stay strong. You can do this, and you WILL feel better, every single minute and every day! You'll look back in a week and a half and say "what on Earth was I so sad about??" Believe it!!
XHugsX
LOL... how's this for baby steps... 5 hours so far and i haven't called or texted him... lol.... (for a total of 1 1/2 days)
hey, sometimes, it's one moment at a time..
I went for a walk this morning with my girls... until one of them insisted on getting into the pool that's closed.. she got naked and made me chase her around the pool... which of course is dangerous and my foot's not completely healed yet... ugh... i had to carry her home naked because she was throwing a fit... now i'm playing some games on the computer.. I have tonight off for my karaoke contest.. oh boy... after i have a drink or two... i'll be very vulnerable to calling or texting...
you know me and drunk texting...lol... i won't even wait til i think of something clever.. i'll just send something stupid... lol....
OR i'll call Sean and say how bout we meet half way... i know i know... stupid and reckless... i should probably come up with a back up plan now before i do something stupid tonight.... (i can call myself stupid... but you can't ...lol)
with any luck one of my new girl friends will meet me and i'll have someone to chat girl stuff with... maybe she'll help me to say... you deserve better than him... give me a pep talk.. maybe come up with a plan to get the camera back..
Loonybunny ~ who frequently jumps in front of busses and now really appreciates all her friends who pull her back gently or tackles her to the ground.. LOL....
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