It was bound to happen...

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Registered: 10-09-2005
It was bound to happen...
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Thu, 05-15-2008 - 10:51pm

I ran into Bikerguy at open house at the school tonight. I saw him from far away and felt my heart go into my throat but then got involved in my son's class and forgot about it. As we were leaving, his daughter called to me and he said "hey you" in the way he always did and gave me a huge hug. His ex and my ex were there with all the kids so he said he'd talk to me later and left. So, I'm having a glass of wine and telling myself that I'm ok. I hate that he had that effect on me when I had convinced myself we could be friends. Maybe it was just the circumstances that we saw each other again...I don't know. I noticed as he walked away that he looked back several times as if he really didn't want to go. I know that us not being together is the right thing right now but it still makes my heart ache when I think of what's not there between us anymore.

So, that's my new update...I know each day will bring new challenges and I'll be ok.

Thanks for reading this far...

Cat

Cat
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Registered: 05-13-2005
Fri, 05-16-2008 - 9:20am
Well, that would have to be anything but easy given the feelings you did have and the way he disappointed you and the situation - but it sure sounds like you handled it very very well!! That is something to be proud of! Plus I just like the way that you put yourself and your needs first and do not go chasing him. Keep us posted!